This here is a post i wanted to input into an entry on a Friend's journal which lies here. ... please bear with me ^^;
To Lull:
You know? ... It's funny really...
sometimes, the things we least expect to succeed at, somehow end up pulling through all others...
Tonight, I wanted to go in and check out if you had already opened your charity, as I have for the past few days... And instead of checking your journal, I try the subscriptions and Ego-search... but to no avail. The charity appeared missing. I nearly freaked, because I made sure of the address to be right...
Now as I read this entry I can't shake the feeling of guilt. "I would never expect this to happen to Lull; I wish I could have done something sooner; It's all MY fault; I should have never left..." Those kinds of thoughts raced through my consciousness and I felt it tug at me... I think it is because even though I consider myself not that close to you as a "friend" normally would, I am a person who cares... ^_^
... You know what? I couldn't help to be away, even though I wished I weren't... but the guilt felt towards my inability remains. Maybe it is because I am of the few who have not known you nor have had a decent one-on-one, but I can't help but feel bad about it all. Don't feel bad! That's not my intention! Really!
I feel sorry for your charity not opening the way you wanted it to be, and I am sorry for not being there, and I'm also sorry if by reading my post, you might feel bad because of my words... but all I can say is "I'm sorry"
I think I speak for myself when I say this: "Sometimes an apology like "sorry" and a "wish well" thought isn't enough..."
...but it's a start.
I remember when you used to ask those Questing "DO follow your dreams" and "DON'T give up!" and I only ask of you to do the same. Even if my request might sound selfish at best. It is a beautiful wish to help people, even if it's just by a small ammount. It makes us feel bigger than any mountain and makes us feel like we are worth something to someone. Just because things didn't work out the first time around, doesn't mean they always happen like that; or will happen like that every time. Still, take your time to collect your thoughts as to what you will do next, and whatever your desicion may be, always remember, your friends will be there to back you up wink
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I feel alot better about it now, believe me. I'm still disappointed, but I realize I'm not the first person to fail and I'm not going to be the last. Also, you're right. I shouldn't give up. I'm not going to go back down the road I did yesterday... But! I can probably find a different way to help people.
And if not a bunch of strangers.. At least my friends whom I know would let me. ^__^
*hugs* You're a wonderful person. Thank you so much for your kind words and for cheering me up.