WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM ME??!! I've tried so hard, I've done so much for you, gone were I would never go for any other guy. I want to be with you, I want to stay with you! So why is it that you're never around?! You say you want to hang out with me. Then you leave and hang out with your friends. Its not a bad thing, but everyday? You told me at one point that you would hang out with me too. At first I thought 'Okay, yeah, maybe this will work.' BULLSHIT! I want to be NEAR you! Even when I was trying to be serious, the only thing I heard that was the most out spoken was "So, you really don't like it." and "Want to go outside?". NO! I wanted to work with you on this! I wanted to try! But finally, I said one of the most mean things I've probably said to him since the time we started going out "Fine! Go hang out with your friends! I don't care!" was what came out of my mouth, know what he did? He LEFT! Yup, went out side to his friends. I just about cried. Danielle and Karly came over and hugged me. They've been trying so hard to try to make it work. I feel bad knowing how hard they've worked. Shortly after them coming over, I left. went to the bath room and bawled my eyes out. Yeah hun, I CRIED for you. I hope your happy. It took me the rest of recess to calm down and stop crying thats how bad it was. I missed Karly and Danielle, which might have been a good thing, I looked like crap, and not felt like crap. NO! Not even crap, crap is too happy, I felt like s**t! In healthy living I just put my head down and ignored Ms. Blackman. Chris was sitting next to me and actually asked me if I was depressed. I almost started crying again; I acutally like Chris, he probably one of the only ones who acutally seems to have sense at times. I responded, teary eyed "Yeah, yeah I am." He looked confused. I didn't waste my breathe trying to explain it. And just put my head down. I almost didn't want to go to class, knowing that I would have to face him again. Something I really didn't want to do. But I sucked it up anyways. When I was there, HE LOOKED COMPLETLY normal! Like nothing had happened. I wanted to scream! I wanted to pull my hair out thats how pissed I was. But you know what? I'm going to listen to some very vaulable advice that I received from my mother. " He isn't worth it, you've done everyhting you can, you've talked to him and everything. Don't go chasing after him. Its his turn to chase you, thats how it should be." So know what? Fine, go on go play with your friends. I'll be over here with mine, not missing you and waiting. So that when you do want to be with me I can reply "Sorry, I'm hanging out with my friends, I'll talk to you later, Okay?". Thats the plan, and I'm sticking to it. Touch me, and I swear to God I'll snap. Right now, if he were to touch me...I don't know what I'd do.
I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave you my love
and you snapped it in half
now there it is on the floor
so that when your ready
you can pick it up
the only question that remains is
when will you be ready?
Love yah Babe, but you're driving me insane.
I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave you my love
and you snapped it in half
now there it is on the floor
so that when your ready
you can pick it up
the only question that remains is
when will you be ready?
Love yah Babe, but you're driving me insane.
