• Chapter 1
    I wake up at seven A.M. every morning to get ready for school. I throw on a pair of black skiny jeans, a t-shirt with a band logo, and a jacket..sometimes. I go down stairs and grab my backpack,my skate board,ipod, smokes, and if its there, money for lunch. I leave by seven fifteen, carefulling trying not to wake my mother up on the couch...where she passed out and lock up.

    On the way to school
    My name is Drew Coletta Ambrosine, im 18 years old and I smoke and drink. I only have two best friends who are like me...one mother who doesn't care and a missing father...I feel like they can relate to my problems. Their names are Hayden and Lala.
    I stop at a light and flick my ashes of my cigrette and see that on my left are the "the populars" in their nice cars.
    "Hey gothic girl!" One football idiot yells.
    "Stop that steven." A blonde yells, but you can tell she doesn't care. I've gotten used to those people and ignore them.Other people around just laugh, but thanks to my ipod Im not able to hear them.
    When i cross they honk, of course, and giggle their skinny asses to school. One block away I get rid of my cirgrette and pop in a mint.

    School
    At my locker I see Hayden and Lala..whose real name is Lindsey...taking their time to get to me.
    "Hey beautiful!" Hayden coo's.
    "Shut up Hayden. No likes ur cheeryness. Morning." Lala mumbles.
    I nod my head.
    "So anything happen last night?" Lala whispers.
    I show her my wrists...she see's the scar's from when i was little from cutting. There are also new ones from last night, when my mom slapped me.
    "Oh sweetie!" Cry's Hayden.
    "Come over to my house tonight. We're going out. You too Hay'." Lala chrips.
    I nod. If you haven't noticed yet im not much of a talker unless i have too. And when i do, you won't like it.
    Bell Rings "Damn! The bell. See you later's girlies!" Hayden waves.
    "Ready to go to boring Mr. Mine's?" Lala rolls her eyes.
    "Oh joy." I roll my eyes.

    "Hey when did you get the tattoo of a rose on you neck? You said we would get our first together!" Lala passes me a note.
    "What are you talking about? I don't have a rose tattoo on my neck."I write back.
    "LADIES!" Mr.Mine's yells. "Do you have something you want to share?"
    "Yeah. I need a band aid! I was just asking her if she had one1" Lala yells back.
    "Is that right Ms. Ambrosine?" Mr.Mine says.
    I nod my head.
    "Well then just come up here and get one! Next time you intterupt my class again it's detention for both you!"
    Lala walks up and when Mr.Mines turns around she sticks a note on his back saying " Kick Me" and grabs a big band aid.
    The class starts to crack up and Mr.Mines tells everyone to shut up.
    "Here cover it up." She hands it to me.
    I nod and cover up where she says my little 'tattoo' is and go back into dream world.
    When I hear the bell ring for the first time, i notice im already in fourth period and it's lunch time. I head out of the classroom and go to my locker where i put all my stuff away. I decide im not hungry and go straight to the spot where we always eat. I notice that Hayden is talking to someone new, who i've never seen around school. Hayden notices
    me and waves like a mad man.
    "DDDRRREEEWW!!!" He yells. I walk over and sit down and wave. I have my earphones in and Hayden rips them out of my ears.
    "HEY! WHAT WAS THAT FOR!" My voice rings.
    "Welllll..this is Davi. He just transfered from California. Say Hi to him." Hayden commands.
    "Hi..." I mumble.
    "Hi." This Davi says. He has dark brown hair and eyes. He is really tanned and has a little accent.
    "Derek is originally from Brazil." Hayden pronouces." Hot right?"
    "Sure..." I mumble. "Um.... Where's Lala?" I ask him ignoring Davi.
    "Principal. Oh yeah we're ditching today right? I was thinking we bring Davi with us!" He claps.
    "Nice way to get him started..." I say looking around.
    "Was that a yes...or no?"
    " It was a "It's his choice...don't just include him without asking him!" I yell.
    "Im fine with it....I hate physical education. Whats so educating about it anyways?" Davi says in his hot brazilian accent.
    I just nod. "Then the usual place? Im not going to next period though. Not feeling well. I think im going to wait at the park. 'K?" I tell them.
    " Sure..whatever." Hayden gets up and gesters to Davi." Come on it's time to go." Davi gets up like a little pup.
    I sit there and watch as a group passes by and jump in and that's where I take my leave and go to my locker and then secretly run quietly out of the school. Not excepting anything later to happen.