• Only he can stop my heart from beating. Only he can change my thoughts from darkness to sunlight. Only you and me… can possibly be forever. I couldn’t imagine the day that he would leave me. Or that there may be a possibility that he was not the only one who could make me feel this way. Not in a million years could I have thought my heart could hold so much love inside. The pain inside of me when he left that day felt as if it would be everlasting. But just as horrid as I felt was just as amazing as I felt when I fell in love for the second time… Yes it may seem insensible, but I assure you, once you have this kind of feeling it is very hard to let go.
    Why haven’t you come back? How do you expect me to live alone? How can I possibly live without you? These are the questions I so dearly wanted to ask him. So many things I wanted to say to him, so many things I wish I hadn’t said to him. Only now I sit quietly alone in this house which we would have shared together before the accident. I lay in bed with his picture by my side not crying. He told me not to cry for him… He told me I have to be fine when he leaves. I must be happy, go to work, go shopping for monthly groceries and eat healthy. I must act as though my wonderful Tristan never existed in this world. Well if he never existed in this world then I will not be a part of it. I Ameleena will not be left alone. I wish to join him and be with him forever.
    Is this the only way to live? In pain and sorrow for the rest of my life. I do not wish to have it be this way. Tristan want me to be happy, the only happiness for me was him and I aim to be with only him. I aim to die for him. She sits up slowly in her bed and stands stand’s up. Slowly and zombie like she walks to the bathroom, open the cabinet and takes out the sleeping pills she has been using ever since Tristan died.
    For that one moment of darkness and silence she felt happy, thinking only now she will be able to see her lovely Tristan. But this moment of serene happiness is not to last her very long.