• ‘I love you. Do you love me?’ Such a simple question, yet it can be the hardest question you face. What if your best friend that you never thought of as a more than a friend asked you this? What if the person that asked you didn’t even know? What if you lie to keep them happy? Life is full of what if’s. Love I full of unanswered questions. What if hurt and hatred was all you’ve ever known and someone came into your life and made it upside down you not even knowing a hint of what will happen next afraid to trust afraid to love afraid to have friends afraid to smile afraid everything in your life is fake? What would happen if the one person in your life that you could escape to and trust died? What then? Would you be scared? The people that experience this sometimes go crazy sometimes hide who they really are to there friends they don’t even trust sometimes they can’t take it and put themselves out of there misery but not me. I refuse to act as if everything’s all right or go crazy because of loneliness. I refuse to take the easy way out of life. I am 13 and in my life I’ve known nothing but pain and sadness the one person I trusted was my father and he died last year because of liver failure. He left me in a cold world where nothing made sense to me and trouble I often get into. I cry often wishing he were by my side again. I can’t trust my mother all she ever does is yell and scream. We never talk I just stay locked in my room when she’s home. She’s a great mother don’t get me wrong just not what I need not what I want. My life changes suddenly as I learned about love, friendship, and loyalty. It felt awkward laughing and smiling again. I did fake smiles before I found a real reason to smile before nothing in my life was there anything to smile about but now that there is I find myself wanting both to go back to my life of sadness and despair for that’s all I’ve ever known but I always wanted to explore this new life I was experiencing. This is the story about how a depressed, deprived, and lost girl found everything she needed and missed. This is my story.