• Chapter Four

    Justin looked at me with content. How can you be happy? This is not happy, this is pure torture! My life is ruined by the man I loved. Key-word 'loved'!
    "You mean," Justin's face looked horrified and hardened, "I came back for you..."
    "Yeah, but you came back four years later!" I screamed at him enraged by his narrow-mindedness. You can't leave someone who has loved you unconditionally, then come back and expect them to still be in love you.
    "No, nothing is the same," I started, "everything changed once you left me. All alone, Justin I loved you; but you never thought of that. You never took my feelings into consideration, did you?"
    Justin was stone-faced silent. Every sense of reality to him, must of been lost. Justin reached for my hand, but I pulled back from his love.
    "You hurt me once, already. How do I know you won't do it again?"
    "Because this time, its different."
    Justin reached for me once more and I left him take me in. Engulfed me with his arms, as every single particle of me begged me to say no to him. 'This time, its different,' just kept ringing in my head and my heart. I could feel him within my soul, the essence of my very being beginning to merge with his creativity.
    His lips slowly met mine own. Seeking entrance, with to what I should not have given him yet I did. Every ounce of myself fought within its shell. Wanting to be free, yet begging to be chained as I lost my tight grip on reality. But this, I hope he was the only person, that I could ever let this close.
    In this time I chose, to lose it all. Lose my life, lose my heart, and my family. So I can have this one pint of happiness.
    Of love.
    Of him.