• Alot has happened in the past year. I would guess. So much that I feel the need, to wirte it down; to get the stroy straight.
    You see. I 've had a hardship still weighing heavly on me that I just can't bear to keep locked anymore. So here it is:

    10th Grade! Ahh this was my year... No exuce me Our Year , Mae; my best friend and I. But oddly i was put out of place. Mae was new to our school she had just busted out of Catholic school to try a year of public to see if was all that it was cracked up to be. So we were a team no excuse me a duo. Our team consisted of pretty real people, who were honest and had the same problems as us all. E didn't know who his father was, had an alcohlic mother that kicked him out a on a daily and a lil bit of an anger problem. I ended being the one of the people that could stop him. Anothny, he was lil bit of mystery to me. But he was cool. Mae. honestly she was a b***h, through the eyes of her best friend she was everything that I wasn't && I wanted to be. But nothing was sound for Mae. Her mother didn't like her very much, Mae's father almost killed her mom&& she was always stuck home watching her little borther and sister. Her only escape was school and extra activites. And her boyfriend, I couldn't deal with him. he was way too mysterious, he was way too qutie, to be invovled with us. I didn't like him after 1 mounth of thier dating becuse:
    1) He already had a very faithful girlfriend; so what does that tell you. if he did it to her. He can most definetly do it to you.
    2) He flirted too much
    3) He let me flirt wiith him...


    After three mounths Mae couldn't take it. He was too cold. Oddly she loved him. && they ened up getting back together all secertive only I and E knew. I never said much about it. But from beginging to end.. I was drunk half of the school year... What can I say? Bad habits die very very hard. But I diegress... E and I get very close over a preiod of time he time he was my best friend&& no other guy was giving my any attention. Mae had stole them all with her spunk. My silly hippie ways were too much I guess. But I was so used to being told how pretty I was I forgot what it was like to be called ugly. && it tore me up every silnge day to hear it. But someone...E especailly made me feel; well special again. Soon after Christams break, We were offically a couple. And everyone had something to say. He was dirty, He had anger problems && Me? I was a typical slut to people. I don't know why. I'd hate to say they were jealous of me. When I swear, some of these people looked like they walked off of catwalks. So me and E are all dany &&happy. Till Anthony home boy Steve asks me about chillin with him to. Get high, laugh, talk. He was new to our school, so he needed a friend. Me thinking were just pals. Nothing is goning to happen..?
    So we talking, chillin, happy friends. Before I know it. He's sucking on my neck. It's all going so slow, thean it speed up && I couldn't keep up. I didn't know what to do. Before I knew it. Life took a totslly different turn for me. I went home with some huge behind hickeys.
    When E saw them I convinced him it was when were playing around && he had choked me (playfully). He promised never to do it again. Then about a mounth later my period was at least 5 days late...


    To be contunied......