• there were times, befor i'd met you, that i was ready to just give up. I'd wanted to end it all. And then i met you that day at mickey's locker, and forgot all about the pain as soon as i saw you. I didn't know what was happening to me, but the walls i'd spent so long building up just fell down.
    Then the next day you were with Bethany when i went to hug her. I said hi, and i wasn't sure what else to do, so i took your hat. i said "you can have this back later." All you did was smile and say "okay." But i didn't see you untill the next day.
    When we talked i was happy for the first time in what seems like for ever. And i'd talked to all of my friends about it and they all said the same thing. So I'd made up my mind; i was going to ask you out Monday. But you beat me to it.
    I was so happy, but then the ice storm happened and i missed you like crazy! But when it was over, we had our first kiss. And after that i could never get you off my mind.
    But then i caught myself, and i was scared. I was falling for you and I knew it. I didn't want to get hurt again, so i avoided you. But when i talked to Esmeralda about it she said, "don't be scared Caylee." So i came back to you that day.
    I'd thought it was all okay, but you took it the wrong way. But I didn't know it, and i was falling deeper, and deeper in love with you.
    Then Tre' told you i was cheating on you, and i wanted to die. But the way you looked at me almost did kill me. I'd never been so upset over a guy. I was crying my eyes out, and every one was scared because they didn't know what to do. I'd explained what had happened on facebook like 26 times in one hour. So every one that knew you tried to fix it, but it didn't work. So when Dustin saw me crying, he knew he had to do something because he was the only one you'd talk to, and he couldn't stand seeing me like that. After that i owed him so much.
    And then we were ok for about 4 months. But then you got in alot of trouble. I was so stressed out, and I was smoking more than ever.
    Then the crap with my dad happened, and you were the only thing keeping me together. But you kept getting into trouble, and I was terrified i was gonna lose you.
    Then when that blew over everything was fine. But only for about a week. Then you said you might be leaving. And I was so scared. And befor i left you said you'd have to think about this. I cried all weekend. And then Monday you were still there. But then Esy told me we needed to talk, and she asked me about it. I was clueless, so i went to ask you about it. But as soon as i got up there i heard "it's over."
    I was crushed, and I'd tried to talk you out of it. I told you that every one around us had dated long distance. But you wouldn't listen, and it tore me to pieces. But come to find out it was more than distance.
    You told Berrey that you just didn't like me any more, and that you liked Dawn. But she said she'd never do that to me. I felt bad that you were alone, and depressed, but it was your own fault.
    Then Heather told you she hated you, and you said you knew, every one did, but you didn't know why. So she told you: it was because you hurt me, and they were sick of seeing me cry. So she asked you why you dumped me, and you told her we had drifted apart. All because i avoided you that one time!
    But the only reason i did that was because i was falling for you, and i knew it, and i was scared. I'm sorry. But now you're gone, and i've moved on!