• There is so much pain in life but still I continue to walk on.
    I try to keep my head held high but its not always easy.
    When you've been told so many times in your life that you are nothing,
    you tend to believe it.

    I still keep walking on.

    But sometimes I wonder if the pain is worth it.
    I came into this world with nothing and I'll leave with nothing.
    I have been homeless, abused, molested, and been without.
    I wonder if God cared so much about me, why would he make me suffer so much.
    Yet there are those who have never had to go thorough the life I had and when you tell them your problems the shrug them off. Like there nothing and your being melodramatic. I tell you that I'm not ok. And you tell me that I'm being dramatic as always.
    You've never been through it and it hurts.

    I feel disposable. I feel useless and I definitely don't feel like I'm much use to the world. Yes I am ashamed that these things have happened to me, but I never chose them to happen. Its hard to tell someone what you've been through when its something like this. But I've trusted you and you still continue to shrug it off.

    I've broken down the wall around my emotions on to get hurt once again.