• I love life the way it is now, rather than what it can be.

    Living in the past is behind me now as I move forward to new goals and new people to love.

    I find myself having a wonderful life spending it with family and friends, having a wonderful boyfriend, and having a great school year so far.

    We've had our bumps in the road, but we've gone over them with as much possible grace as we can probably pull off.

    It's been a long journey for me these past few years, starting middle school, now at age 14, going into High School next year, I don't know what the journey will bring me..Hopefully it'll stay the same for me...an average life with an average family. But I can't tell the future. No one can..(by the way they think they do when they don't.)

    So here I sit, curled up on my bed with my favorite book, in my pajamas, with my snuggie and sock monkey, just thinking about everything that's happened to me so far that's been great. Wow...so much time has flown by but these days we have forever in a day, right?

    hmm...It get's me to wondering why people can't act like such a scrooge sometimes...



    I've had my ups and downs with friends, family, and guy trouble before...but it seems to be better this time of year..just this specific time of season is when everybody starts to actually care for each other rather than fight all the time, which in my opinion is a GOOD thing. It's nice when you walk down the street and you hear a little girl say to her mother "mommy I wanna help them." It makes you feel good inside.



    No I'm not going to give one of my somewhat life changing speeches...this time...I'm just gonna tell it how it is..just face the music of life..you know?



    I don't know about anyone else, but I've seemed to have picked up some good luck these past few weeks. For once, I'm not falling down stairs (or up them if you know me REALLY well) and I'm not smacking my face into a clear glass door. I haven't broken anyone's heart (and I hope I never will) and I haven't said anything I regret.



    While my mom and I were at Walmart, we were paying for our stuff and we were talking to the cashier girl and she said "I'm ready for this Christmas to get here so I can see the look on my little sister's face. I got her some fish for Christmas but they're on back-order so they MIGHT get here before Christmas or the day of..." I felt really good hearing that because I know I got almost every one a gift.. I got my sister covered, my brother covered, my dad covered, my mom covered and my boyfriend covered..just one person will be happy when I see their face Christmas morning...me.



    Knowing that I've done all this makes me feel like I've accomplished something this year..

    I've re-connected with some family members, made new friends, and just realized that even though not everyone is the same, you shouldn't treat them all the same way. everybody has different tastes in what they like and don't like.

    I love how when people help one another and they don't expect a thing but the simple greeting of 'Thank You', and that's all they wanted in the first place..to be noticed by a stranger walking down the sidewalk. I don't know if anyone has heard of this complete stranger who walks up to a person and just hands them $100, wishes them a Merry Christmas, and walks off...hmm...spreading holiday cheer wherever he goes, huh?



    Thinking back on everything that's happened to me and my family and friends..I wouldn't trade it for the world because if I did, I wouldn't have anything to hold onto in the future...



    So this is my short (or somewhat short) statement of what I have experienced these past few years....

    Have a safe holiday everyone...