• I hear the sound of a loud splash within my ears,
    My hopeless and empty feelings then floods the air right in front of my Slightly closed eyes..

    I can see the last few air bubbles from me falling in.

    i slowly open my eyes after being pushed in,
    and I can not remember what had happened.

    I stare blankly at the bright light above.
    the surface of the water that has Captured me.

    not knowing if i want to live or die,
    My memories flood my watered filled mind.

    I then start to drift into my Thoughts..
    i feel the sorrow and pain from yesterday.

    the depressing emotion which caved me Into this abyss, and
    the not knowing where to go from here.

    the light starts to dim.. and i think about breathing in..
    but i don't... instead i stare off into the unknown..

    I feel a sliver of peace knowing this could be it.
    then i hear those things from me within.

    "why do you want to die?"
    myself asks me.

    I reply..
    "what is left for me?"

    Softly it says
    "truly what is, but what is not?"

    I stared into the distant water not knowing what to say..
    then i ponder the questions that race in my head.

    I feel a sense of something lost.
    what is lost?

    can i find what is lost?
    What if i don't know what is lost.?.

    I find a slight sense of maybe i'll be ok..
    then that feeling started to drift away, as i make my way to the top..

    Everything i feel is lost... my emotions is gone, and I AM LOST..
    I curl myself into a ball giving up completely after all.

    The tears float to the top as i let Everything out..
    Saying goodbye to myself i start to breath in.. every emotion starts caving in...

    This is when i could no longer breath in... i suffocated everything i hide within..


    That truly was,
    The end.

    Kelsey stephens~