• You crushed my heart
    And shattered my soul.
    I was hoping
    You would be different
    But you weren't.
    What did you think of my performance?
    You didn't really think I was ok with the breakup,
    Did you?
    But I still care for you
    So I spared your feelings,
    So you don't have to go through
    The hurt and the pain.
    I pretended,
    So you would feel alright
    Even though,
    You crushed my heart
    And shattered my soul.

    Why do humans have hearts
    If they break so easily?
    If they are so fragile
    How do we survive in this harsh world?
    A Blizzard of sadness
    A schorcher of happyness
    An abyss of anger
    None of these could strain my heart.
    My heart can contain all of them
    And I grow stronger.
    No, none of them could hurt me
    But you could.
    You could say four little words
    And my heart could explode.
    It could break
    Or shatter
    Or crumble
    Or you could take it.
    You had it.
    And you broke it
    Shattered it
    Crumbled it
    And gave it back to me.
    Wrapped in sadness,
    Larger than the abyss
    Hotter than the scorcher
    Colder than the blizzard.
    Is my heart unwanted?
    No.
    Just discarded.
    You used it as much as you could
    Then threw it out when you finished.
    I don't even have any happy memories to look back upon.
    You wrecked my heart.
    This wound
    Will hurt as it heals
    If it ever does.
    Why do humans have hearts
    If you break them so easily?
    I used to think you cared
    When you always asked about me.
    I used to think you liked me
    For who I am.
    But did you?
    Did you really?
    I liked you
    For your kindness and humor
    But what happend to that?
    Was it all a show?
    Leading me on to belive
    That you actually cared?
    I suppose it was.
    When you left,
    You left nothing
    But a broken heart
    And a broken bond.
    You know we can't be real friends agian.
    You were only saying that
    So Mara wouldn't hurt you.
    You didn't give a reason for your leaving.
    You were cheating, wern't you?
    I can remember
    From 3rd grade
    Me and you playing in the soccerfeild.
    Chasing each other
    And hanging on the soccer goals.
    Are those the only happy memories I have of you?
    What happend to that friendship?
    Then in 6th grade.
    Chatting while on the computers
    Didn't you get my secret codes?
    Hot and cold?
    Sweet and sour?
    I was trying to tell you!
    I've been madly in love with you since we met!
    Then you said yes.
    Why?
    Now I reflect
    On my first relationship.
    Is it better to love one who doesn't love you?
    Or to love one who crushes your heart.
    But I used to think you cared.
    I did.
    Didn't you?
    When I read your words
    My heart stopped.
    My summer love was over,
    And I had plans.
    A movie?
    A concert?
    Just a day together?
    I would have offered those
    If you hadn't broke it off.
    Summers almost over.
    My ideal summer
    Has been a crap load.
    The worst by far.
    And you?
    The sprig of happyness?
    You were just there to distract me.
    I wish I could say I'm over you.
    But I'm not.
    My heart is still
    In pain
    Trust you to be faithful to me.
    Cheater.
    You can't cheat the game of Love.
    And trust?
    Thats just bull.
    Just when I was getting to be me
    Out of my depression circle
    You had been helping me.
    I liked you
    Now you leave me
    Halfway out of my shell
    So much for my happy streak.
    But seriously,
    I'm sore.
    Sore from your false words
    Sore from your false caring
    Sore from your false lies
    Sore from your false emotions.
    Do you even have any?
    Or are you a robot, controlled by your friends?
    Or by the world?
    Do you even have a soul?
    If you did,
    You would know
    How much you hurt me
    And you would know
    That I was only pretending
    To be fine with it.
    You know how I seemed happy?
    Or at least not hysterical?
    I didn't want to hurt you!
    I don't want to hurt you!
    I love you dammit!
    Can't you see that?
    I cried no tears.
    I would have
    If it weren't for the fact
    I'm a stony person agian.
    I've only cried two times
    In my life.
    I didn't cry when I broke my ankle
    Because I knew
    There would be more important things to cry about.
    Me not crying
    Is proving
    You wern't worth it?
    Is that what I mean?
    I don't know.
    I love you still.
    That is all I know.
    When I read your words
    My heart stopped
    And now it is afraid to love agian.

    Yesterday I was passionate
    About you
    But now?
    I'm in regret
    What did I do?
    You had been wonderful one day
    And evil the next.
    Why do you tease me!
    You made me feel
    Appreciated
    But was I really?
    I thought we were a good match.
    I thought you cared!
    I trusted you!
    Am I angry?
    No, I don't think so.
    Sad?
    I suppose.
    No! I know what
    This is!
    I'm feeling betrayed!
    Yes! Thats it!
    I was hoping this
    Would have a happy ending.
    Like a date?
    Well, not anymore.
    I don't feel the same way
    About anyone!
    I guess this is love.
    It took great effort to commit to you
    I felt ready to be a girlfriend.
    But I guess I wasn't a good one.
    Or did you get tired of me?
    Or was I just a show?
    To tell everyone
    Even when you weren't serious?
    No.
    I think you might have actually liked me once.
    You seemed happy to see me.
    Why are you so different online!
    You don't act like you do in real life!
    Were you cheating on me?
    I need the truth.
    Out of all the lies
    You might have told me.
    Out of all the lies you didn't tell me.
    Please.
    Tell me the truth.
    I'm prepared for the worse.
    Yesterday I was passionate about you
    But were you ever passionate about me?
    I don't know what to say anymore.
    After it happend
    I died.
    I may seem dramatic
    And I probably am
    But whats wrong
    With a little
    Exageration?
    You left me
    And I was unprepared.
    I've never felt hurt like this before
    I feel unloved,
    Despite my friends comforting words.
    I feel cold
    What should I do
    When I see you agian?
    Do we talk?
    Are we really friends?
    Or do we ignore each other.
    Are we scared to talk?
    Or do we not want to stop.
    I really miss you
    Because I still love
    Even though my heart is shattered
    Even though it is lifeless
    Even though it hurts
    I prevail
    Because I still care for you
    You infuriate me
    You tell me
    LIES!!!!!!!!!!!
    Did you really get
    3 more girlfriends
    After you killed me?
    I don't know what to say anymore
    Because you have silenced me.