• This morning I woke up
    With the truth hitting me
    Like an arrow aimed to my soul.
    With a message…

    That my heart no longer sings your name
    I almost heard my heart with its dying beats,
    Faint rhythm pounding on my chest

    Later on I saw you, so contained
    In your own world
    And just like a mushroom
    I sprang into your vision.

    Silence engulfed our surroundings
    As we stare into each others eyes…
    Never in my life had I felt so lonely
    In your company

    Your cold blank stare
    Piercing its way to my core
    This silence breaks my heart
    It torments me.

    No more hungry than a vampire
    It sucked the life out of me
    This silence between us took me
    Farther away from you, perhaps…
    It’s the same for you too?

    And in your eyes I see.
    Trails of endless exhaustion
    You are once again tired
    This too tires me

    Slowly our colors started to fade…
    Like tears they bled from the walls
    Melting away, leaving only
    Different shades of gray

    Just like your colorless eyes
    It left me void of sensations
    Of burning heat and desire
    For your impossible touch


    Hopelessness took hold of my body
    Relinquishing my latent happiness
    Yet I ache to see your smile
    To have your laughter ring in my ears

    But you’re tired and effortlessly
    Defeating me in this moment
    I know in my heart that you wanted Nothing more, but to leave…
    Or for me to leave.

    Why can’t I leave?
    Do not in this state
    Blame me for the flaw in me.

    This feeling had to fade
    Though my hands were gripping on to What seems to be the remains of my Wretched and worthless emotions

    Perhaps holding on to you…
    Your hands are cold
    Even colder

    Break me and this silence
    Take away this meaningless sunshine And offer me the cold rain instead

    Lead me in the rain
    And let me be soaked,
    My body
    My mind
    My soul

    Then I shall take my final sigh…
    And wish that all my suffering and misery would go with it.
    End me this pain.

    Then take your loneliness
    As you leave me in this rain,
    For I fear you’ll get so tired…
    And I hurt.


    Perhaps my company had achieved nothing…
    But another load to tire you some more.

    Take away with you my dream
    Of screaming with you
    In senseless arguments
    Or of gazing at the night sky to count the endless shimmering stars.

    Take away my fantasy
    Of capturing shooting stars
    In our intertwined palms

    Take away my broken smile
    That never did define something just as wonderful as you

    And maybe if you’re not too tired
    You could take away my life
    That will surely crumble at the second
    You take your first step
    Away from me…