• As I lay here,
    trying to sleep.
    I think of all the possibilities,
    but the one that stands
    out the most…
    is one that involves a knife
    and stabbing it into
    my fat belly.

    I want to see
    how much force and pressure,
    it would take for the knife,
    to slice through my fat
    just to pierce my organs.

    I’m sure when the knife stills,
    and protrudes from my stomach.
    It’ll prove just how ugly I am.

    But I’m also sure
    that the thing that
    would “do the job”,
    is, of course,
    a gunshot wound,
    to my face.