• what is this feeling? how do i make it stop? why dose it hurt? this pain isnt pain it hurts but it dosent its like mi bodys numb but i can feel it. This is all in mi mind. I sit here left awake watching time go bye as mi body shakes the world im in seems to crumble like theres been this big earth quake and i fall threw the cracks watching the ground shatter as im left awake staying here in mi darkness that surrounds me im turning deaf dum and blind so why dose it feel like im wasteing mi time mi ears here nothing mi feeling is nothing but pain yet mi bodys turning numb shuld i run NO! i never ran frm anything in mi life this feeling of pain and strife its only something called mi life.mi tounge ripped out so i cant taste mi nose stuffed up so i cant smell the flames burning around me mi eyes sown shut and im drifting here in mi mind waiting as i seem to die alive.im dieing here as i wait cuz all the time it takes is just to late and then i realize im dieing in mi own mind as this self suicide happens i live mi life that is surrounded by fake im dieing cuz i just dnt no wats real anymore whos here to b here or here to just get away ad now i think its time that i just get away before it gets to late cuz if not anyone or anything else im rea nvr fake so as i sit here i realize all thats left to do is awake......dam what a dream ZC