• eveything I see
    everything I feel
    it's all grey
    everthing around me has transformed
    all of it to grey
    even my emotions have turned
    drawing is no fun
    singing has lost it's joy
    even writing has become something I no longer yearn to do
    it has become something I must do
    but not what it used to be
    maybe it's because I know you won't read it anymore
    after a while the only time I could see the bright colors that used to inhabit my world
    was when I was talking to you
    when I was texting you
    when I was around you
    otherwise it was all grey
    it was all shading into black
    whenever we fight I wish for the grey to darken
    to let the black darkness engaulf me
    to finally end this torture
    I know I haven't had it as bad
    but I'm also weak

    I remember the time we sat at Cupcake
    we had a total movie scene
    I told you, "I'm so lucky to have you"
    you told me you thought it was the other way around
    because I never left you for the fights we had
    I just went and sat in my Laura corner trying to make you feel better
    and wait out your anger
    but now you're telling me to go away
    I'm never going to give up
    not even to the kind black darkness that threatens to take me
    no, I won't leave when you may still need me
    you being here, it's keeping me seeing in grey pigment
    keeping me from losing myself in the darkness
    I love you
    you're my best friend
    maybe I don't deserve to be your friend
    but I won't ever abandon that position
    I'm the one that will never leave you
    no matter how much I want to
    I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU BY YOURSELF
    I WILL NOT leave you for a few mean words said
    I will sit in my Laura corner and wait out your anger
    no matter how long it takes
    I will waste away in my corner
    sit there and turn to dust
    for years and years
    and wait out your anger
    because I can't lose you
    it would rip me to shreads
    it would kill off every part of me that's still alive
    it would through me into the black darkness
    even if I have to help the darkness take me
    but I will never leave you
    without you everything is grey
    without you nothing is worth it...