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#0
My head thrashing
Banging against the surface
My vision becomes clear
All there joyous laughing
Makes me sick
Do I wanna die?
I don’t know any more
Can I handle the day?
When you are no more
Will I still adore your faint memory?
#1
Is there light?
DO I wanna fight?
Fight this beast in me.
Should I stand alone and become what I feel?
Hatred is the undying shroud of my life.
It eats away at me every day.
The gift of shedding blood in the only bliss
I can achieve
#2
I joy in your suffering.
Where did this tremendous feeling come from?
I hate you!!!
Is there such this as love in this world?
Who gives a ********?!?
I see love
I choke
Till the day I die.
#3
Every one says they love me
But do I?
Pictures of them screaming
Bleeding on the walls is all I dream.
My dreams press further.
Further into the future
Who is the culprit of this crime?!?!
I am!
I’ll find away to make this happen
Today…
#4
My heart has been cradled for too long.
I don’t feel any thing
Every thing is just a blur in this infinite abyss of love and hate
My shadow is my only friend; it doesn’t sulk when I cry in my sleep.
It does what I do.
It does not rape me when my back is turned.
It bleeds all over me, when I cry
It makes me better then these words I write.
My shadow is sewn to me, it can’t leave me
Even if every aching bone wants to leave me
It can’t
I sit there laughing maniacal as its squirms
Is this what I have become?
Desperation is worse then loathing in front of the mirror
Wanting to be someone else
That’s all my shadow can do
I follow and become a shadow
I turn into what I hate
Hate is what I follow
It talks what ever it wants
Every one likes it
Every one laughs at its joke
I sit in the shade and wish I was like hate
I shouldn’t follow and become the idol I hate
But…then again I can’t
#6
The darkness
It shrouded my life
Eating and getting its fill
It felt like I was broken inside
Inside
There was nothing
Was it real
Or just a memory
I was an empty corpse
I had no purpose
No one had me
Could this darkness become less lit?
But just as I wait a bit
You
The one the sun rises and sets for
Came
And pulled me out
Thank you
Your purity cured me of my sickness
You took me from this evil
And destroyed the upheaval
Now I can live with you in my heart
#7
My life was good
When you were around
But that time is gone
Nothing seems real
When you talk
I start to itch
When you don’t
I start to twitch
You’re just a b***h
But as you fake that smile
I laugh
Cause I know
I’ll bestow
The final blow
Tonight
Standing still
I Billow
Now without
Choking
I keep hoping
I can see you again
So I can contain
This message
All it is a presage
Of this
Should I bleed my sickness away?
I don’t know any more
We began like one another
But all I had was darkness
It is my undying mother
Every thing is a joke to me
All I wanna do is choke
The heat is real
Life is surreal
I’m decaying
I’m rotting
I’m no more.
#8
At first I like it
Only when my eyes are sealed shut
The second was great
More and more this event evolved
New pages turned
The hate begins to boil
I look at myself and don’t see me
I feel lost, running but getting no where
There is no hope; all I can do is seek more
I don’t want to but my heart wants to eat the rotten
Days pass and my former skin peals away
I’m a monster, the devil has consumed me
I tremble in fear, trying to escape
I begin to split
The good and bad are expelled and see each other
I stand alone feeling nothing
This grotesque beast that is me wants my heart
My heart is sickness and must be abolished
The skin that has fallen has risen and claimed my heart
Consuming it, it becomes shrouded by my darkness and hatred
I’m free but the creature still remains
#9
The decrepit mold that became the beast
Suffocates my dreams when I sleep
Its red and startling eyes haunt the shadows around me
Its footsteps echo all around
I turn my back and there it is
A living and breathing monster
The demon was once a part of me
It was a leech that thrived off of me
I enjoyed the power I received but I became trapped
Its black tentacles filled the air
I choke, lose sight of things
I become ensnared by shadows and once again
The demon of me has consumed me
Day by day it feeds
I feel my insides bleed, giving it sustenance
I can’t fight it; my heart has become black with emptiness
I’m hollow again and every thing is blurry
Nothing seems real and in grasp
My intestines boil from the inside, every thing has sunken deep
Deep inside my abyss of loathing
The creature of death lurks around every corner
I begin to cry tears of blood
It has won
But the war has only begun
#10
It’s like I’m stuck in a prison of myself
Every thing I see is what I have kept hidden
All my secrets are forbidden, but released and entangle me
For this is what I see
The demon that consumed me
Was nothing but fake
I begin to bake in the oven of my own depression
I start to flee and turn to my own state of regression
I’m more infantile I open my eyes
I see a crocodile, its mouth over flows with blood
More and more I’m swarmed by a flood
Enough of this game
All I want is fame
#11
Suffocating as I sit alone
I stand alone afraid of not being with the loving entity
My hands clench together
I bleed
I call her name
But my words are entangled
By the self serving world
With each time I look at her
My soul longingly burns for her
I’m just the figure standing in the shadows
Watching what is intangible
Tears of madness pour out
I’m just a vessel incapable of any thing known
As love
- by kjaslkdjiehdfba |
- Poetry And Lyrics
- | Submitted on 08/08/2010 |
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- Title: ZERO's
- Artist: kjaslkdjiehdfba
- Description: I don't care if any of you don't like my poetry, just wanted it out for it to be seen and read. It might be, what's the word, banned? Several poems of mine.
- Date: 08/08/2010
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