• It's now 4:30 a.m.
    And I'm still awake. I can't sleep, cant stop thinking of him. Every song reminds me of him,
    Every movement. He is in my head, he is in my veins, he is tearing me apart.
    Sleep is impossible.
    The warmth I felt in my heart from his touch is gone
    And I'm shivering.
    His eyes haunt my dreams, his perfect smile won't leave me be
    I feel like I'm completely phychotic
    We aren't even dating, so he could just leave at any moment And I wouldn't be able to blame him for it at all.
    I've known him for almost 3 weeks now.
    That isn't very long,
    He asked me if I was falling for him last week, I didn't know how to answer.
    If I just said yes, I might scare him.. But if I said no, I'd be lying.
    So I told him I don't know, but I do know I really like you.
    And then I said We aren't even dating, so what would be the point of falling for you?
    He said "Just in case."
    But I don't want to fall for him... He is too perfect.
    He is better than I deserve. He is better than I should be allowed to have for my own..
    Guys never like me, not like that, let alone perfect amazing gorgeous guys like him.
    I have just been hurt so many times before, by lesser people than him.
    So if guys who aren't so perfect don't even like me, why should I believe he does?
    I trust him with my life,
    But that scares me.
    I just assume the worst and I can't stop...
    Can't control it.
    He makes me so happy, but I have to wonder....
    How long will he stay before he realizes
    I'm not worth his time..?
    I blew off all the guys who have wanted to be with me since I met him
    Because he kept saying "Yet."
    "We aren't dating, YET."
    "She's not my girlfriend, YET."
    He knew how much I liked him, and
    He knew every second I spent with him just made it worse.
    Well. While I was blowing off everyone for him,
    He was blowing off me for everyone else...