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Here I am lying in my bed
Thoughts of my hate repeating in my head
Why did you do this to me?
I'm an innocent child who wanted nothing more..
I wanted a normal life
I wanted a normal dad
I wanted a normal mom who always didn't look so depressed
I hide thinking, and wondering
I have no future
You ruined it
You took it from me in 1,000 little licks
As I get each kiss from him to me
I keep wondering, "Why did you take the pleasure from me?"
Is something wrong with me?
Is my life not meant to be?
May I take this gun that you once owned, and pull my life away?
Why is God not helping me?
Are you there?
Take all this pain away from me
When I grow up
I don't want you there
I want him
A child
An amazing job
An amazing house
But you took that all away from me
How could you ******** do this?
Was it easy?
Was it hard?
Did you enjoy every pleasure you felt from me?
Why'd you take advantage of me?
I am your daughter
NOT your lover
Everyone hates me
Thanks to you
I have no friends
Thanks to you
No one accepts me
But they don't know my ******** story
You sucked my life away
You licked it all away
Are you watching me?
Are you ready to take over me?
Once again..
And I'm helpless again
As they all laugh at me
I'm thinking of you
And how I must kill you
Tears and scars won't help
Am I that much of a ******** problem?
Why are you putting me in this s**t?
Get me away
Before I end my life
I'm heading away
I'm so sick..
I have no future..
You took it all away..
- by Sentimental News |
- Poetry And Lyrics
- | Submitted on 10/15/2011 |
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- Title: PTSD
- Artist: Sentimental News
- Description: When I was younger, I was sexually abused by my father. I have PTSD . One thing that comes along with PTSD is people with it often think they have no future. That's a strong part of me.This poem is about how my father ruined my life, and me wondering if I have a future.. And how I might have been if he hadn't done all those things to me. It is also about my suicidal thoughts. And me questioning God. I also suffer from other things like paranoia.. depression. I'm hypochondriac. Socially awkward.
- Date: 10/15/2011
- Tags: ptsd
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Comments (1 Comments)
- Ms SaxoBeat - 11/18/2011
- Your story is tragic, I really wish you a lot of good fortune, may the rest of your life go well, god bless
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