• No one can know my pain
    This is my burden
    No one truly understands

    If they did
    The anguish would crush them
    Some days the Blackness seems friendly
    Curling around me
    Asking me to enter a place I know I can never leave

    I wear a smiling mask
    When I am alone, hidden
    I take it off
    I can cry and be weak
    A place where no one needs me to be strong or whole
    I can drop the farce
    And let my heart scream, and cry
    A place where no one judges me
    Criticizes me
    Tells me what to do
    Insults those I love

    How much longer must I endure?

    Heartache is my companion
    Home remains my dearest dream
    A family that loves and accepts each other
    A day where I will finally remove this cloak of shadows

    I’ll wear a gown of pure white
    Adorned with brilliant shards of starlight
    My jewelry made of crystal tears
    Sending rainbows arcing into Eternity’s light
    When my mask will fall off
    When I will smile for real
    My heart will be finally free
    A life never-ending
    In a perfect paradise
    No fear
    All things forgiven

    A place where I can forget the screaming
    The fear of being ripped from my parents
    The insults from family member to family member
    The feeling of not being able to do anything right
    The shame of having nowhere to go
    The sorrow of seeing another’s tears
    The feeling of hopelessness
    The knowledge that you are a burden
    The cares of the world rest on your shoulders

    A once happy innocent child becomes
    A figure shrouded in black
    Bent double
    Pushed into shadow
    Carrying woe
    Knowing that children must grow up
    That the happy light will be crushed
    In a dark cruel world
    Eventually rekindled
    To shine forever
    All scars will vanish
    The bent will stand tall once more

    The day the Lion walks with the Lamb
    The day we are welcomed Home
    Children will never know pain or fear
    Adults will not remember the trouble of life
    The raging sea
    Will forever be calm

    By the cross I’ll enter in
    By His Love I will be freed
    By His stripes I am healed
    By His grace I am redeemed

    My pain He has felt
    My anguish was long ago understood
    I know I am no burden
    The fights are meaningless
    The fear is invalid
    My Father will always be beside me
    Hopelessness was long ago defeated
    My cloak is fading
    The pain is still present
    But now, I know
    That this too shall pass
    This He has promised me
    For all eternity