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Dark clouds cover the sun…the sun… the only thing that can help me find my way to you. A tiny spec of light seeps through, a light so dim, it is hard to see in plain view. I open my eyes, wider and wider, and walk closer and closer towards what seems to be the only hope I have to live happier, a walk that seems almost endless. Times passes slower, but with every second, I walk ten times harder for you, as you wait for me to finally reach my destination, you. A twist in the path rips me apart, pulling me in all different directions, my eyes begin to close, and I am forced into a demonic slumber. Dreams, once thought to be the best part of sleep, the times when you can be happiest and find yourself and that someone else who will be there with you forever. He will lead you in the right direction, pulling your disfigured body back together, leading you to what may seem to be heaven. But times change, and so do dreams. Once asleep, I am thrust into a dark place, a place so cold and so empty. But there is always a subconscious thought that you will arrive and save me from this place. I sit there, helpless, waiting for you to show and sweep me away from the depths of the shadows. Waiting…. Waiting... A hollow voice whispers my name, I whisper in return. Hopes quickly arise, and I dry my eyes of wet tears. A figure of a man appears before me and a hand reaches out… a way to help me up. Now smiling our hands touch, but in that move of desperation it was not the hand I was supposed to take. The blood that was rushing through my veins now slows; a shiver passes through my body, and in that one misconception, the torch is raped of its flame. Left frozen, the man turns to leave. I try my hardest to scream, to call the name of the one who I love so dearly. Tears begin to flow freezing up instantly as they touch my skin. I try to call for him again, forgetting his name as my blood slows down even more...I know… its over…he’s not coming. I think of all the pain that he has caused me and all the transferred words of our undying love…. Anger boils up, but I cannot comprehend, why he has left me for done. I think harder and harder, contemplating all the reasons why he won’t come to save me, why he thinks that I can get out of this one by myself…. I need help… I can’t do this on my own anymore…. The man, now engulfed in the shadows, re-lights the torch and raises it slowly to the wall beside me…a word written in charcoal…fate…My heart begins to beat again, and my blood begins to flow …fate…fate… The man disappears, leaving me once again in the dark. But I no longer feel like I’m in the dark, I no longer feel empty and cold. Something that had never crossed my mind… a word that seems so simple carries a heavy meaning. And I realize, he is with me, he always is… there is no escaping him for as long as I carry him with me. He is a part of me, so deeply embedded into my heart. I don’t need to wait for him to save me anymore for he already has. My eyes open and I look out the window… It’s raining… But in the distance there is a faint ray of light, and I know, he is thinking of me.
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