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When I look in your eyes; I don't see mine.
My vision has faded from your soul and I all can do I stand apart and watch your life go on by. While mine will sit back, waiting for the day when my horizons met what I've always been waiting for.

How can everything that happened between us just slip away from your heart?
You said I gave you feelings and emotions you believed were never possible. I must mean something to you if I made you experince a new life far beyond your reach. I need you. I miss you. I wish everything was so much different. I can't believe how hard I fell for you; I thought this would never end like this. You're the most amazing person I've ever met and all I could ever need. I don't want anyone else. Never, I only want you. You're all I need and nothing more.
If I can't have you in my life; whats left to hold onto? My tears will stain my cheeks and my blood will sting my arms.
If I can't feel for you then what can I feel anymore, other than a sharp blade against my skin, cutting into my last breath that I wish I could breathe by your side. The hardest part of this is seeing you happy with someone else. I want your happiness more than anything else; I thought if you were happy, I would be happy too. But its to think that your happiness is because of your love for another. You said you want to be with me and no other girls. Then who is she?
Am I over reacting? I believe not.. its just that I love you so much.. theres nothing else I want more..
I could type of forever and ever.. but nothing would ever mend the pain that haunts my thoughts now. I feel you in my dreams; and I don't even sleep.
Your colonge used to hang onto my clothes and my skin but it no longer stands strong. My perfume stayed on your body for a while but you tried something new.
My body that lay on your matress; my makeup that stained your pillow; is replaced with something new.
I miss having you tight against my chest. Your fingertips were what outlined my heart.
They say if you love something; let it go. But they never say what to do when it doesn't come back. You left me so many promises. You said you were afraid of losing me but now its turned to my side; I lost you. You never lost me but you let my grip slip. Why did it have to end so quickly..
You had your arms around me as you introduced me to your family members, you weren't ashamed of loving me even for what the differences were. I love you so much. You said you loved me..

You said you loved me...