I can't beleive it. I failed Japanese. it's only a matter of time before I see 3 more f's. Damn it all! I love'd that class. I know I didn't do any homework but I passed every test except for two. All A's one C and two F's. but over all that came out to be an F. Sigh. I guess I couldn't get away with test scores alone. but I can't accept this! there's no way in hell I'm just going to have a damn F for Japanese. I mean is there a way for me to take this course over? I mean god damn! now I'm trying to think about all my other classes. I'm in deep s**t because my teacher left for my digital image developement class before I could even give her my final project so now I've been trying to contact her like crazy but I haven't had any luck. I had a C in the class before these last two important assignments. If she doesn't get these assignments then that'll be another F. I'm not worried about english because every paper have been a C so most likely I'll get a C out of the class. then there's speech. I have no Idea what in the hell my grade is going to be in that class. I'm hoping for a C because I've done every speech and got high grades on them. damn it damn it damn it! why is it that my bad habits are starting to turn against me. I can't take this. I'm not going to be a college drop out. and then I still haven't took out that loan. I'm in like deep s**t. deep deep deep s**t. I seriously am stuck. all of my prcrastination is coming to kill me. The only way to solve this is to do it myself. this is no one else's fault but myself. tear tear tear. I'm really disappointed with myself as an individial. this is reall pathetic of me. really pathetic. I'm the only one out of my friends that failed their first semester. this is really embarrassing. I don't how this is going to work. how am I going to tell my friends? I can lie to my family. sigh. I'm not going to hear the end of this. s**t!
well on to other news... I'm highly tensed about my grades. I can't think about anything else but my grades. so much for jumping to a different subject. I tried but my mind won't let me. I'll get through this. I'm not out of college yet. I still have a chance. I can do this. I can do this. damn. how do I lie to my father. hope he doesn't ask for proof. come on! I don't want to fail! I worked hard on my final project for didgital image development. I really did! I can have everything just end like this. it can't end like this... it can't... this is really pathetic if I let Rayne top me. that's not gonna happen. I guess I need to come up with a new strategy.
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