Last night I was sitting out on my deck. In my new hotpink john deer sweat pants and of course a not matching purple shirt that came from some event or club.
I took out a marboro menthal light from my purse which I had took with me incase someone decided to ruin my alone time here on the deck sometime in the early morning. After an hour I had gone through nine and I was getting ready to light my tenth one.
Lately I've been having to be careful with lighting a cig, last time I burnt my thumb in my panic to quickly light it. Not cool with part of your thumbnail turns a bit brown.
Anyways, while I was taking deep breaths in and exhaling light grey smoke I looked around. I'm aware of the fact that if you live near a big city that it's hard to see all the stars. But this just got me depressed, I mean I'm all for finding constalations(sp?) It's kind of a weird thing I do when stars are out. But if some stars are missing then hell why even try.
I've always thought that stars are connected to the emotion hope. I know weird weird weird. But this is the kind of stuff I think about when I'm all alone, outside in the feaking cold morning when i can't sleep. Hey I haven't had coffee in like...A week. Don't clap it's not a good thing.
ANYWAYS
Stars = Hope
You can agrue that it's not true or my view is wrong. You're allowed to have an opinion and feeling about it. But keep it in your mind not in my inbox.
Hope shines, it burns inside us. We all might hope for a different thing, a pony, acceptance, that sweet megatron action figure you've been betting on ebay for like three days! Or just someone to care for you when you need it.
But also hope can fade, disapear like when a star dies. If you don't know much about stars dying I'll give you a little lesson.
When I star just explodes from old age, all the light will be gone but we still see it from earth. We will see it for a long time.
Hope can be that way to sometimes, it looks gone on the outside but on the inside your hope is still shining but slowly fading away.
Rose
 RadicalRosebud · Thu Aug 27, 2009 @ 06:14pm · 0 Comments |
