• Obsessive Depression
    Prologue

    I sat there unable to believe what I was hearing as the words formed in my mind. "Miss Jefferson you're in your early stages, but you're pregnant." I lay there in the ER bed as the words played in my head. I was having a baby by the man who had shot me. I closed my eyes and let the room pull me inside of it. As I wonder what in the world was I going to tell my mother? Just as my thoughts started to settle the ER phone ranged and I answered.

    "Hello." Trying hard not sound like I hadn't been crying all night I answered the phone breathing to myself like I had just ran a marathon.

    "Hey Shayna, how you doing baby?"

    The voice on the other side spoke gaudily. I tried hard not to cry as I remembered who I was talking to.

    "What the hell do you want Demon Jones, I told you not to call me anymore."

    "Girl shut the hell up; I don't know why you trying to act all hard like I won't beat the breaks off of your a** in the hospital."

    My breath was short because I knew that his threats were real. Demon knew everyone there was to know, and would kill me in the split of a second if I didn't do what he ask me to.

    "Now listen up trick I need you to get better like yesterday, and I need you to go get my money you dig."

    Tears formed in my eyes as I simply replied "Yeah Demon, I dig."

    I sat there unable to believe what he had just told me, here I was having his baby and all he wanted me to do was get his money. Like I was a piece of property to him, nothing more nothing less just property, he didn't care about me he just acted like he did. If he loved me then he wouldn't have shot me?

    "Yo trick, did you hear me." His voice sounded like death as shivers ran up my spine, he was heartless, cold an inconsiderate b*****d. I can't even remember why I loved him in the first place.
    "Yes, Demon I heard you." "
    Oh, okay then baby well I know I'll see you tomorrow. And I know you you'll be looking sexy as ever."
    "Yes Demon if you say so, I'll be there and I'll be looking sexy as ever."
    "Good, bye Ho."
    I heard the dial tone in my ear, aghast that I was ever in love with such a man like him and what was worst I was having his baby. I lay back in my hospital bed and let my thoughts consume me when a thought cross my mind I hadn't had sex with Demon in 2 months, then who I pregnant by my thoughts continue on, when I ran into a memory. I smiled as I remembered him the way he kissed me and he loved me that one night, making scream as say things that Demon never could. My mystery man was a very light brown with muscles showing through his shirt, his teeth were perfect and white they were made for giving my pleasure. I close my eyes and placed myself back at that night when my mystery man ubiquitous pleasing me in every way he knew how, I got wet just thinking about him, the way he's skin felt underneath me nails as I dug into his skin when he sent me into an orgasm. I heard a knock at the door; I open my eyes praying that the man whose baby I was having would be there. It wasn't it was only the doctor he smiled as he walked closer to me
    "Miss Jefferson it's nice to see that you are up now, how are you doing by the way?" He smiled at me as if he had known all the pain I was going through
    "Well Doc, I'm breathing so I guess in fine you dig." He walked over to my bed and sat on the edge of it
    "Well Miss Jefferson if you feel that way, but cheer up at least you don't have to pay for your medical bills." I looked at him shocked unable to believe what I was hearing
    "Doc man don't mess with me for real now." He turned his head to one side then back to it upright position.
    "Miss Jefferson, I'm not kidding, your husband, or boyfriend came in here and paid all your bills."
    I looked at the doctor to make sure I understood him correctly.
    "My what, I don't have a husband or a boyfriend."
    "Well then Miss Jefferson considers yourself lucky."
    The doctor patted my leg then got up and left out the door, I sat there with an inexpressive look on as I thought to myself "Who in the world would my doctor bills." Before my thoughts could even form into a person my answer, open the door. I looked up startled and there he was my mystery man standing there looking at me with his hazel eye, he gave a crooked smile and it sent shivers through my body I had to pinch myself to make sure that I wasn't dreaming.
    "What are you doing here?" I examined
    He walked closer to the bed he had on a black silk shirt, with white dress pants, with matching shoes, his hair was cut into a low fade. I was busy looking at what he had on that I did not notice that he had a long stem rose in his hand. He sat on the bed and answered
    "Well I am here to see you." I smiled as he gave the rose to me.
    "Okay so you came to see me. What now?" He looked at me puzzled for a moment like he was expecting me to hug him or something, but then he smiled that crooked smile showing his beautiful white teeth and said
    "I am here to take you away. I know you're pregnant and I know who your boyfriend is, as I matter of fact I know all about you."
    I gazed at him unable to believe what I was hearing. What he did meant when he said he knows all about me, was he some kind of stocker. I sat there for another minute looking at him, and I had to admit that he was looking good even if he was a stocker. I crossed my arms in front of me and I started to speak but out of no where he leaned closer to me and kissed me passionately devouring my mouth as if it was a hungry man that had not eaten for a couple of days. He pulled away leaving my breathless, I was in total awe… who was this man? At least his name if he was going to take me away like he told me I had to at lest knows his name. So I asked him "Listen I know you know my name, but what's yours?" He gave me a beautiful smile showing me his crowning teeth then he responded
    "My name is James Lamar Williams."
    Then he took my hand and skillfully kissed it, and for once in my life I smiled at a men, because he showed me affection usually I would have pulled my hand away, but I didn't I let this man shower me with is passion. My breathing became uneven as a flash of heat passed through my body, what was this man doing to me; wasn't it enough that I was having his baby. Why did he have to torture me as well? A smile crept across his face as if he could read my thoughts, then he said "I am not torturing you I just want to show you what it is like to be loved, for someone to want you like you want them, I want to treat you right, I want you to be my wife." His word came out so placid that I didn't even think they were real I didn't think none of what was happening to me was real, until he leaned down and kissed me once again letting his tongue slid in and out of my mouth facially. His ebullient voice was deep as he spoke "So what do you say Shanya, will you marry me?" I wrapped my arms around his neck and started to rub the back of his head, and then I replied "Kiss me again and I'll think about it." He grinned as he leaned closer to me, my heart started racing faster as his lips gently brushed against mine, then he back away. "I'll give you all you want if you marry me." He whispered.
    He had me the way no other man had, I crossed my arms in front of my chest and rolled my eyes, why oh why was I obsessed with this man, till the point that my body crave him more than anything. There was no question about it I was going to marry him, and be his wife, but he would have to protect me first.