• CH 10:
    I waited nervously in the waiting room. I was so worried, I didn’t know what to say. I fidgeted around my seat eager to see him, but the nurses taking care of him said that in half an hour they would take me in. Every time a nurse came out of that room I thought they were going to tell me I was going to be able to come in, but every time the nurses just went in and out. I was super nervous for Joseph, I hope he’s alright. I heard my cell ring and it was my parents. They were wondering wear I was and I told them what happened but I didn’t say any name specifically who did the harm to Joseph. I hung up and I played with my hands, hoping that maybe that would take time off. A while later the nurse said, “You can…” and I was already up heading for the door.
    When I went in I saw Joseph with bandages around his forehead and some ice. But he was sleeping. There was a young doctor who came in and told me,
    “Well it seems like he has a concussion it will take about a day for him to rest, he could’ve been severely hurt if the damage was done slightly worse.” I sat in the room looking at him. His eyes were closed and he seemed peaceful, I wanted to lye next to him and tell him everything was goanna be alright but he wasn’t even conscious yet.
    I heard something coming closer, heading toward the room and when the door opened it was Jake.
    He first looked at me and I saw his face turn slightly pink and then look at Joseph. I had to say it felt awkward because the last time I saw him he had kissed me.
    I sighed. “Jake what are you….” before I could finish he said it all.
    “I felt horribly bad for what I did, and I was the one who did this to him I should apologize once he wakes up.” he said.
    “He has a concussion so your goanna have to wait till tomorrow.” I said.
    He ran his fingers through his hair frustrated a little, then sat down.
    “Well it wont hurt to be here for a little while.”
    I went to go sit next to him. He was nervous I could tell. But moment later I realized I had to get home it was getting late. “Well I got to go ill see you later.” He waved me goodbye, then I walked up to Josephs bed and gave him a kiss on the forehead. I heard Jake sigh before I left. Poor Jake.

    As I left the hospital I felt really confused. Jake had kissed me, and Joseph was in the hospital. Two things I was worried about. I walked back to my car and drove back home. As I was driving I thought of what happened earlier today. Ok so Joseph was in the hospital and he would get better by tomorrow, so I guess I don’t need to worry so much about that. But Jake had kissed me, and when I saw Joseph there on the hospital bed I hadn’t admitted it to myself at the time, but I had felt disgusted with myself. I was dating Joseph and I had a perfect relationship with him when Jake had to ruin it by kissing me. I thought back to the moment when he had kissed me, and the moment I thought about It something scared me. I relived the part in my head, remembering when Jake kissed me, and I felt butterflies inside of me. Oh no, “No! no! no!” I said out loud and smacked my hand against my head. I was starting to like him. I started getting worried, this is not what was suppose to happen. I told myself, “ok, it’s a small crush, completely normal, all you have to do is stay away from him and you’ll be fine.”

    I straightened myself up and backed onto the street again and finished driving, I would think about this stuff at home, not now. I got home with what seemed like 5 min.
    I rushed through the door and went into my room. I finished my homework later than usual. When I finished I looked at the clock and I had about an hour or so till I had to get to bed.
    Here is what I thought,
    Tomorrow I should tell Joseph about why Jake had punched him and why he always acted the way he did. Then I should tell him about how I had kissed Jake, so at least I would get that off my chest.

    I was fidgeting with my hands at the thought of telling him. I mean what would he do? How would he react? All these question frightened me but I ignored them.
    Well maybe I don’t have to tell Joseph I kissed Jake. I mean I would tell him, just not tomorrow, because he just came back from the hospital and it might be already rough as it is. But id tell him why Jake was acting the way he did. Also what am I going to do with Jake? I cant let him ever kiss me again, it would make me like him even more and I would ruin everything I had with Joseph and I. Maybe I could talk to him tomorrow and tell him we need to keep our distance a little, or maybe I, I can uh, ugh, I don’t know what to do. I put my head on my pillow. Well I don’t know what I’m goanna do with Jake but I guess ill figure it out tomorrow.
    I turned off the lamp and put my books in my backpack. Then slowly walked back into my bed and closed my eyes. Then a while later, I fell asleep.

    CH11:
    When I woke up I smelled something really good. I ran out of my bed to find my mom with eggs bacon and some toast.
    I ran next to her,
    “You have any for me?”
    “Of course.” She smiled.
    As I was eating I realized something. This is unusual my moms never done this for no reason.
    “Um mom?”
    “Yea sweetie?”
    “Why did you make this breakfast?”
    She smiled widely.
    “Because we got your report card in the mail and you’ve got first honors!”
    “Oh MY GOSH!”
    I started jumping up and down. I have never gotten honors in my life first of all, but to have first!
    I ran around the house jumping and laughing.
    I was way to excited. My mom hugged me.
    “So whose this tutor of yours, we really have to thank him.” She smiled.
    My face then turned serious. “Nah he’s ok ill tell him myself.”
    “No we need to properly thank him. Ask him if he can come over tonight and have dinner with us.”
    Oh boy. This was not goanna go good.
    “But mom…”
    “No discussion.”
    Ughhhhh.
    I walked out of the house and I drove to school.
    I saw Jake there waiting outside the driveway. I got out of the car and he smiled when he saw me.
    “Hey” he said looking down. Oh yeah, right I had to talk to him. Might as well talk to him now before Joseph gets here.
    “Jake we need to talk.”
    “Yea I figured it was just a matter of time.” he said. Good he got wear I was going at.
    “Look Jake what happened in the park a couple days ago…” I didn’t even know how to finish. Then I repeated it again finishing my sentence.
    “What happened in the park a couple days ago wasn’t right, and we both know it.”
    He sighed. “Yea I know.”
    But then he leaned closer to me slightly and smiled,
    “You could’ve always pushed me back to stop me.” He said smiling brightly.
    “But you didn’t.” So now he was goanna mix up my words, I see his game.
    “You could’ve always not have kissed me in the first place, and everything would’ve been alright with Joseph and I.” I said.
    “What do you mean when I had, you know, kissed you, was after I hurt him.”
    I realized I had said to much. When I mean that if he hadn’t kissed me in the first place, everything would be alright between Joseph and I, I meant that I wouldn’t have liked him. And apparently I wasn’t thinking straight and I said it out loud.
    “Oh yeah…sorry your right.” I said nervously and started walked away. Jake ran up to me and pulled me slightly on my arm.
    “There is something more your not telling me.”
    “Why would you think that?” I said my voice uneven. Shoot that didn’t help.
    “Because I can see it all over your face.” He said smiling.
    I hit him softly on the shoulder and laughed. Then we both became serious again.
    “Its nothing.” I said.
    He looked concern. “There’s something more to it that your not telling me, but I cant force it out of you. You tell me when your ready.” He said. I thought to myself
    And that will be never. I laughed silently at my joke. Then said, “Ok.”
    Jake was sad that I didn’t tell him. Maybe he thought that what he did in the park, ruined everything, or his other actions in the past, and hes thinking now I cant trust him. But he’s got it all wrong. As I saw Jake walk away his head was tilted downward and his hands were in his pocket. I felt bad for him, he had done a lot of mistakes and I can tell he was really regretting it. I wanted to hold his hand and tell him it was alright, or did I want to hold his hand because I was liking him?
    Well either way he would think I was probably finally liking him.

    Now that I thought about it I really shouldn’t like Jake. He cheated on me with another girl maybe I should talk about it with him too. I mean if he really liked me he wouldn’t have cheated on me? I decided later that, yea ill talk to him about that later.

    CH12:
    Joseph wasn’t here today which worried me. The doctors said he would be fine by today but he’s not here. At the end of the school day he still wasn’t here. I was going to have to visit the doctors to see what was wrong.
    But as I started walking toward the parking lot I found Jake there. Here was my chance to ask him. I ran toward him and he looked surprised to see me I guess.
    “Hey”
    “Hey”
    “Jake can I ask you a question?”
    “Of course.”
    “Well I think it should be a little more private than here.” I said. He was looking around then said,
    “Oh ok well we can go sit by that bench over there.” He pointed his finger to an old looking bench that didn’t have anyone around the place.
    “Alright come on.” I said. We both ran to the bench and we sat down. He turned more toward me.
    “So shoot” he said.
    “Well it may sound weird but ok…”
    “You said you had loved me, but I was just wondering, if you loved me so much how come you cheated on me?”
    I looked down sort of nervous. It felt weird to talk about stuff like this now that we broke up.
    He looked downward toward the floor. I guess he was thinking.
    He lowered his voice a bit,
    “Well because I loved you Jess, a lot more than you think, and when you left me I got devastated. We were boyfriend and girlfriend and we never went out often and most of the time you were busy. I was barely able to see you. I felt depressed every time we left, not knowing when the next time we would meet up. I would sometimes be doing something and you would pop up in my head. I got so depressed I didn’t even know how to think any more. I started going to a dance club thinking it would get my mind off you. But I only saw other girls with men and it made me think about you even more. I drank two glasses of alcohol. Once I lost you I had remembered, that there glasses were huge, each glass was probably two normal portions of alcohol. So I got drunk not meaning too. I wasn’t paying attention to how big the drink was. So I got drunk. But wait before you say anything Jess….”
    “You got drunk, oh yea thanks for reminding me.”
    He sighed and put his hands on his face and closed his eyes.
    “I didn’t mean to get drunk. I was so depressed I didn’t see how big there glasses of alcohol were. It was a mistake, I should’ve been paying attention. And just because I didn’t pay attention…” he looked up at me sadly and finished,
    “I lost the most beautiful girl I ever had.” He looked so sad. I truly felt bad for him, or did I feel bad for him because I liked him. Im not sure. He sat back up straight but his face was leaning downward. I held his hand, and I saw him look down at our hands together,
    “This is how it was suppose to be.” he said looking at our hands touching eachother. I didn’t know if I should pull my hand back or not. So I left it there, if I pulled back then maybe he might feel even worse and I know how much he cared for me. And today was probably his worst day ever. I didn’t want to make it any worse than it was.
    “And when I saw you come through that door when I was kissing the girl it was like I saw everything clearer, and I realized that moments ago I had been kissing another girl in your room. I felt sick to my stomach for what I did, it was horrible. So when I went back to your house I felt so bad, but I was trying to hide that pain, and like I told you before, I hid my pain by acting, all cool and I was acting like a total jerk.”
    I cant describe how he was feeling. He looked so painfully sad I wanted to do anything to comfort him. His head was facing downward his hand was in mine, and I saw his eyes close.
    “I’m so sorry.” It was quiet.
    A moment later he opened his eyes slowly and I saw his eyes just barley look at me. I couldn’t take it anymore. I took my hand away from his and I told him to stand up and I gave him a hug. He had the same cologne as Joseph had, but when I hugged him he didn’t move for a second. He was probably surprised, then after the shock he hugged me back. And we stayed there for a while.
    And the moment we let go of our hug we stared at each other. We were inches apart. We both looked at eachother. Any second now he was going to make his move if i didn't stop him. I backed away quickly then I looked around and I saw Joseph there with bandages all around his head, just staring at us, as if he couldn’t believe what he saw.
    I saw Joseph turn around. And walk the opposite way. Oh my gosh!
    “Jake I’m so sorry I have to go. I said. “Why?” Then he looked wear I was staring at and saw Joseph. “Oh” he said.
    I ran across the parking lot to Joseph as fast as my legs would go and the moment I was there Joseph looked away from me.
    He whispered,
    “Jess please tell me that what I was seeing, were some random people, and not you and Jake hugging and holding hands and i saw you two once you backed away from your hug, i if you hadn't seen me.....i wouldve guessed you guys were gonna kiss each other."
    I was speechless. I didn’t know what to say because that last part i wasn't sure myself if it was true or not. He waited for my answer, but I didn’t say anything.
    He then sat down in his car and put the key into ignition.
    “Joseph wait a second! Let me explain please!”
    He put the car in reverse, and saw him driving away. My legs were shaking and I couldn’t hold myself up any longer and I had to sit down. I sat down on the parking lot floor and leaned my back on some car. And whispered to myself,
    “Please Joseph, don’t go.”
    And his car for sure, was gone.

    To be continued.....