• As i look back i remember all that we went through. The pain, the hate, the fun, the joy. My heart is pounding with confusion and loneliness. The term- " I can feel lonely even in a room full of ppl." i think about it and relize it's true. sumhow it is... Theres a feeling in my stomach that just wont go away, i dont even know where that feeling even comes from.

    Well highschool will start more drama will happen, friends will be torn and new ppl will come. This group is all i have, everything used to be fine. But for sum reason i feel like... i dont really know. I guess I just feel lonely. I cant relate with these ppl anymore. I just dont know what to do now. Maybe it's just me, maybe I just changed. i dont know, I just want to go back to the times where pain was never there. Children. Just relive and revive those memories, and not grow up. Stay in elementary and 6 gr. cause once 7 gr. came, everything just changed. More ppl came and sumhow i just slowly drifted away. They now talk and i have no idea what to do. cause i wasn't there.

    i remember the games we even played. Toilet, was one of them. chase your friend around and push them down the slide, we made that game up. the fun of being a naive child.

    Sigh. it seems like everyones growing up besides me. My friends are now discovering and showing their talents which i will never dream of having. I guess I just need to giv up, grow up, and leave them be. Just get out of the picture.