• I don't know what will I even express my emotion...Even it's perfect already, it's yet Painful...

    let me talk about in our Prom Night...
    A Four-Star Hotel..(was it..??) is we all have been...
    We are separated from 3-4 tables that's how many we are...the others are on the Seniors table..which there are only two tables... (relationships...yeah...)

    If you can all see my friends and classmates, they all really having Fun..when we all get to go Dance Floor and Dance all the way..

    At first, Seniors came out to the floor when the Up-beat Music is played...They all gathered themselves on their side because it is their Last year..

    Then we, girls, where like: "hey, aren't we gonna dance..??", "we must not look like them at the past! That's what our teacher said, we shouldn't be like a Nobody here..!!" "Come ON! we Gotta DANCE!!" Then one of us went like..Nod.nod.nod. Then we all Girls run off of our table and dance (the table of ours are separated, so almost like, 10 girls dance off, then the other girls from the other table join in...). We have a great time...By the way, we somewhat form a circle and dance..then after a moment the boys of ours went crazy, to that, I also saw him next to me..it was like a my heart stopped, but I didn't care, so I just danced so He won't notice I was there, right next to him, I'm pissed, yet i want him there, when they got inside...jumping up and down like us, and get crazy like us..bonding time perhaps..?? Then after a moment the Seniors got invaded us and party like a "Party People"...

    Then some of us girls felt that it's not gonna be safe when they keep doing this so we all move-out and form a circle again and dance and jump up and down...After a moment the boys of ours went inside again and get crazy...hehe smile

    Then after a moment...the music that was played Faded. It Stopped. It turns out..the music has changed...
    An up-beat music faded through my ears as we dance, then it moves slowly...
    It's a "Slow Dance"..

    Then all of us..hmm...yeah..us..went like: xp eek gonk crying "Wah.?! Slow dance?!?" "LOVER'S ONLY!" (some of us went like that), we girls got to sit down, man, also the boys...
    Then I somewhat felt like they're gonna dance every girl, well not everyone!! They can't dance a girl with a relationship with another!! hmm..does that that mean they respect them..DUH., so they did just as I thought. So they all stood up (actually they just next to our table so i can see them smile )

    Then He wait,,to be less confusing...no no no...it's fine.

    His Friend went like "Angelica! Angelica! BLAH (sorry I really can't say his name, I'm pissed actually to say his name...i don't now why.. confused ) wants to Dance with you/ See you...' blahblahblah....that's it..and actually his next to me also his friend...they're really really close that's why I can here his friend saying...his somewhat like at the back of my friend that actually next to me...OH NOOO!!! my Name is SOoo NOT, like, ANGELICA if that's what you're thinking...!! Do I have to describe her or something..?? NAH, never mind..I know you don't have any interest to describe her...good thing my inner self is not here or He/She/It will ruin everything...

    --^ruin what 3nodding ?^-- nothing sweatdrop !! look, do everything what you want just stay...uhhh..out... --^ok. what's that? 3nodding ^-- oh look..its' nothing. sweatdrop .he's wasting my time... stressed can you please leave..?? --^sure^-- better...*sigh* okay moving on...

    Where am I...??? yeah he's right next to me...--^ hey it's MIK- ^--look bucko! your wasting my time!! --^oh did i..??^-- yes you did..--^ then i should probably leave..^-- you better be!! scream stressed --^ gome- ^-- Get out.. stressed stare

    Then he's friend went to my classmate which is really tall and his short, not that short actually..He was like "Come on Krishma!! let's dance together!! " If you actually saw him, she's dragging her out of her chair instead of lending a hand and say it properly..oh man.. even though she said "no" he still wants too, in a few moment she stood up and went to slow dance.. they were really funny...i think he only dance her because the girl he likes has the same name as her: Krishna. No It's not her twin or sister or any relative..Just same.. Then when the time he dragged her out..He (yeah HIM, no not the friend, can't we just name him as "His Friend"..??) Let's try it again...

    Then when the time His Friend dragged her out.. (much better i think..) He ask Krishma's Friend, oh yeah, she may be fat or chubby but she's telling people that she's "sexy", and also, people especially my classmate say that...hehe..it's like a tease-compliment smile .. He ask her to a dance, His also like his friend : "Shara Let's dance! !" and then she went like "Shuuuureeee..!!" She's a really really cheerful girl...

    and they all dance with partners..some of them not actually smile


    Then after a moment both of them went back to their sit...
    And he's back. Again. Right next to me. stare Oh yeah when I'm bored i drink the water from the wine glass, actually.. or not in a mood or something...likethatlikethatlikethat..

    Then all in my head i was like : "i wish he would ask me to dance.."
    BUT EVERYTHING HAS TO BE REVERSED: "NO! why would he dance with me..??! probably he hates me..! yeah that's it, he doesn't like me..that's it.."
    I went like that on and on and on..

    He was there fixing up his sleeve, actually. Then he held out his Hand and ask me to dance, since i can't say my real name...i probably use my account name..or Avi name, if that's what it is called...

    "Mitsuki, can i take/ may i dance with you..??"

    If you heard his real speech he went like: "M-Mitsuki can I take/ m-may i d-dance with you..??"

    .Yeah he went like that, why didn't he ask me like my classmate Shara (the chubby) *shrugs* confused oh well... --^ maybe he's afraid of you..^-- why would he, and why are you here stare --^ I'll just listen and no complain like in your journal, and i think that's the reason why you can't write anymore..^-- Yeah think. What is it.? --^ maybe he's afraid that you'll turn him down, I mean he's the "heartthrob" in your school..and your the only girl who turn him down..?? MAN that's NEWS..!^-- hmm probably..I wonder if i even did that..?? *evil grin* --^ you evil..^-- i know..! smile

    If you just look at me, I just didn't reply. I let go of my glass and stood up and walk on..
    my friend that is next to me went like.."niicee.." i seriously pissed off, somewhat mocked her but angry voice..oh yeah i didn't put my hand to his..when he reached out actually..My feelings since the time the music change, my mood changed that i was really pissed off, i don't know what actually happened to me.. it's like there is some switching of my personality and mood..Moody much..??

    Then after i left the table, my mood change, my heart throb, beating fast, as i was walking i felt really nervous..i don't what's happening to me..

    When the time we both dance now, oh yeah he trying to get close to me and trying to support me or something, but i ignored it,...haha! he's funny. stare wiee...
    Now that we are in placed, My beating heart keeps beating!! As i rested my hand on his not-so-furry-black-clothing, goodness i can't type any longer... Then, while I was resting my hand to his shoulders, and his hands to my hips, what do you call the place where thereis the curved area..?? Bah. I forgot. There he placed his hands.. I just say the words like "Why not the other..??" i think he didn't heard me, so, dance.

    We both got their for a very long time... I saw my friend, she was danced by the guy that likes my friend..hehe..great. smile I just smiled when i saw them. "why aren't we stopping..??" i said that in a low voice, i probably know that he wouldn't here me. BUt NO. Man, is that music really THAT LOUD..??

    Then AFTER a few LONG minutes...His Friend, yeah the guy who danced Krishma (tall girl)..
    Just trying to take a picture of us both,and he's holding a somewhat like a video-camera in his hand from the other His Friend. He's signaling us that we should take a picture, and if even saw him. he's smiling like dork. ahhh..peace-out..?? biggrin
    As the time he was about to pose, and i think he was annoyed by His Friend, so he got angry..but then he "posed", but to me, i felt like I was the one who was being irritated somewhat like that..

    so when the time he got to pose-d...You know what I did..??
    I Left.. I left him at the dance floor. Even though i want too, i don't wanna do it.. so I Left him, if you actually saw him, he was like "comeback.." or like "what the.??" or "...??" something like that with matching reached out hands..haahh...

    I don't wanna take a picture with a guy who has his heart with that *BleepbleeP* girl...I'm not like any other girl that even he's cute and everything..i wanna be with him!! ugh.. stare

    That's the end of it..



    To tell you the truth, even though I HATE him when we were small, and he like me (as they say) in the past, then, i like him now, and he doesn't like me now..it's so different it's so hard..

    ...everything's upside-down now...

    ...and i don't know how the heck what happened to me... even now, i tried everything just to ignore him..but nothing happens...i want my old feelings back...

    P.S.

    Hey, you know what..?? I should have send this a long time ago..
    but my browser got crushed..and it kinda never moved on and it halt kinda everything..yeah..
    *scratchscrathscratch*
    anyway..you don't know how much i reacted when i read this.(again). sweatdrop redface sweatdrop hehe..

    so..uhh..that's it..yeah..
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