- i was just remembering something today...in math class we were doing a progect and i needed a partner and i was scared to ask Alex so i asked holly, i thought she was a freind. she said no that her and her friend esperonza wanted to work together. so after the progect got rolling i was left without a partner and i had no idea how to do the progect, so i look over to ask holly for help and she had invited alex into her group. and they were sitting there talking just like he talked to me, and they were laughing and smiling....and afterwards on the buss holly sat behind me and said "so do you have a partner in math?" i said "no" she knew i didnt have a partner and she knew it, she was trying to hurt me. so the next day she does the same thing but instead says "it must suck working ALONE" she emphasized the word "alone" and i could see in her eyes that she knew just what she was doing. i had one of my friends confront her about it because im a chicken when it comes to things like that and my friend (Destany) told me that holly said the reson why she didnt want me in her group was because i was "weird and anoying" but i dont know what i did wrong... i never say much unless someone els talks to me or i need to ask a question. i just keep thinking why Alex just stopped talking to me, and the worst part is i know why. its because nobody wants to talk to an ugly, fat, anoying, weird, loner. its because im "weird and anoying" i just keep wishing over and over again that i wasnt so damn weird and anoying. its like god knows how badly i want him and me to just click and work out like two normal people, but all god just keeps doing is holding a steak right infront of my nose and yanking it right out of my mouth just i bite down.
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