___//:.(this journal post is OOC)
just another emo rant right here.
I miss being happy.
I used to smile all the time.
I used to know how to have fun without being plugged into a computer.
My parents used to leave me alone.
Life didn't use to feel pointless.
Even now, I'm beginning to feel bored with what I can do on Gaia.
I have friends, but...
It's just not the same.
I can't be normal in real life, so I have to be normal on Gaia?
I'm just pathetic.
Ugly and pathetic. I can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore because I'm so tired of what I see.
A scarred face, limp black hair, skin that looks like a tan faded away two shades, and very un-asian features.
A skinny body, with ribs half poking out, but still somewhat fat. No pretty curves at all, nothing to distinguish me. Nothing worth looking at or caring about.
I suppose I can't change any of that, but...
Sometimes, I wish that I would have had the common sense to kill myself when I was younger.
just another emo rant right here.
I miss being happy.
I used to smile all the time.
I used to know how to have fun without being plugged into a computer.
My parents used to leave me alone.
Life didn't use to feel pointless.
Even now, I'm beginning to feel bored with what I can do on Gaia.
I have friends, but...
It's just not the same.
I can't be normal in real life, so I have to be normal on Gaia?
I'm just pathetic.
Ugly and pathetic. I can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore because I'm so tired of what I see.
A scarred face, limp black hair, skin that looks like a tan faded away two shades, and very un-asian features.
A skinny body, with ribs half poking out, but still somewhat fat. No pretty curves at all, nothing to distinguish me. Nothing worth looking at or caring about.
I suppose I can't change any of that, but...
Sometimes, I wish that I would have had the common sense to kill myself when I was younger.
