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The long forgotten lore of my life
When I feel like it I'll update with my thoughts, views, nonsensical ramblings or events. Just another look into my chaotic enough life. I never know what's going to happen.
Goodbye, my friend, my character
A figment friend now gone from my sight;
a fallen angel no longer taking flight.
The pain and agony, from my bleeding pen, once felt,
has ebbed away, only to melt
into my tears that dust your invisible form.

Your spirit, graced with thy eternal love, reaches the sky
whilst your hallowed corpse, below a bedrock of words, shall lie.
A thousand lives, in an instant, you touched,
but for mine, alone, I was blessed in such
a way and manner that your name forever seared my flesh.

The howling wolf, breath alighting the night, has left this ancient soil,
and through the untold pages he labored and toiled
so that my guardian, from deep within the catacomb of my imagination, no longer sees
for his death, I admit, was all because of me.
It was my doing, after all, that annihilated my precious comrade.

As I penned your blasted fate, my friend, I cried.
Depressed as I am, I will always try
to never forget your life, your stories, and I shall pray
that someday I can safely say,
“Thank you, truly, and I'm glad you were mine.”

I am the worst kind of murderer.
I am a writer.


Copyrighted Amanda, aka Mandydandykid. Created 5/19/08 at 8:39 P.M

A poem done in both honor and memory to a character that I, alone, created. An angel to many of my characters in my novel, my book and series wouldn't have been anything without him.

Murdered unfairly as a result of a madman's personal vendetta, you perished as an angelic martyr for the cause. You shouldn't have had a fate as horrible as that but, as destiny abides by the cruel wiles of coincidence, you had to have been sacrificed in sake of the plot. A divine example of a fatherly figure, you were easily loved and, personally, one of my absolute favorites. You weren't just a figment to me: you were real.

Farewell, my cherished character... I'll forever miss you.


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Angel_Child_Of_Grace
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commentCommented on: Tue May 20, 2008 @ 05:54am
I love that poem! crying Made me cry!! OMG! You didn't kill "Rick" Did you???


commentCommented on: Tue May 20, 2008 @ 11:35am
It made me cry not only writing that, but writing up that blasted chapter titled "Fallen Wolf". No, I didn't kill Rick... but I killed his best friend. Remember I was saying how "Poison" wanted to kill two people (Rick and "Mark" wink ? Well... I just wrote up the chapter I've been dreading for ages...

Mark... It's like he was real and I'm mourning him. Now I respect writers even more than I did before; they have to have a fantastic willpower to even go through with such vile actions like getting rid of a beloved, benevolent character as him. The character was a mix of both my mother and father's personalities and idiosyncrasies. crying



Andercondrak
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commentCommented on: Tue May 20, 2008 @ 02:11pm
wow...it takes utter skill to kill a character and feel for them...i don't feel my char when i draw them, dead or alive. i wish i did...hmm...you've given me something to think about...

but your char will always be with you, no matter what. remember, goodbye is just a word, an inappropriate word at that. try see you later. xd

by the way, you have just proven my point, artist are monsters! with the line "I am the worst kind of murderer.
I am a writer."

beautiful poem.


commentCommented on: Wed May 21, 2008 @ 01:14am
crying crying crying crying gonk gonk crying crying nooooo!!! You said you'd kill him, but I didn't actually think you'd go through with it cry gonk crying



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commentCommented on: Wed May 21, 2008 @ 04:25am
It takes a lot of willpower to do it, Art-san. Even though they're fake, imaginary, not real... they're like children to me- all my characters. They're my creations, beings that I took and breathed life into. Making them as real as possible was my challenge and, thusly, to me, they WERE real.

You'll feel the same way I do. Trust me. Don't you feel that way with Stefan?

It's true. He'll always be with me. No matter what, he'll be there. After his death, he'll show up in at least two planned out flashbacks that have him mentioned in there, so he's not entirely gone. I'm doing that so the readers will realize that, even though he was murdered, he won't stop making an impression in the novel. It's true! "I'll see you later, my friend, my cherished character! Every time I open the book... and read a chapter with you in it... you're alive to me!"

Artists are monsters! You're right. When I killed him, I realized what you said was true. It's horrible but we can be the worst villains in the plot of life ever. Thank you!! This poem was all for my lovable smoker in the novel. Forever missed he shall be...

If I may quote a part of a song to be a cheery uplook for my perished character:

Good bye mata ashita ima nara egao de we can say!
Good luck mata aeru sono hi ga kuru made never sad day!

Translation: Goodbye, it's tomorrow again, if now we can say that with a smile
Good luck, we'll meet again, until that day comes, there'll never sad day!


commentCommented on: Wed May 21, 2008 @ 04:28am
Oh, Child_of_grace... I know... It's horrible... crying When I promise something I always go through with it. He died a sad death. Soon, if you and Art-san wish to see/read a part of his death chapter, I can send you a bit. Right now I'm finishing it up and editing it.

He... He was one of my favorites. Him and "Rick". "Rick", thank god, survived. At one point even he was supposed to die, and the one image I had planned for the one of the last things in the book is that the remaining living demon slayers, standing on the now deserted battlefield, after killing the demons, they see their spirits amongst the smoke and carnage. Only lasting a few seconds, the two of them would vanish. However, now that "Rick" lives and "Mark" dies... well, change of plans, I surmise!

God... I'm going to miss him...



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commentCommented on: Wed May 21, 2008 @ 03:24pm
stefan has kinda been replaced with the alucard says scrooge you pick and now alucard is replaced with the angle of death walter! they are not happy, let me tell you

Alucard: stressed
Stefan: gonk crying
Walter: blaugh
Aluacard: just you wait, you'll be replaced soon!
Walter: gonk

ay, tis true, i'm thinking of drawing the valentine brothers AND i still got to do the Vampire project. so my um feeling for my char are short lasting.

ah, speaking of alucard, in 1 day he got 14 page views! i don't know how, but he did

Alucard: at least someone likes me. emo

well keep in mind, you've been working on this for how long? question and alucard and stefan we drawn and colored in one day! eek infact the only pic that comes to mind that i spent like 3 days on, the longest amount of time i ever spent on a pic was the moulin rouge bolero pic, and well, i don't get excited when i look at it like i used to... emo

ahh, yes, in life or in fiction, no one dies, as long as a copy of the book exist, or you don't get retrograde amnesia, no one EVER dies! and in the future, we will always see them again.

and thank you! no one else believed me that artists are monsters! people saw us as gods! creating miraculous works out of nowhere! never mind what we destroy in the process!
oh shi-taki mushrooms! gonk NOOO! NOT ANOTHER ONE! i got a new idea for a drawing!

gonk NO PLEASE! MAKE IT STOP! gonk


commentCommented on: Thu May 22, 2008 @ 01:05pm
Awww, Stefan, it's alright... You'll never be truly replaced. My Guardian Demons, Renir (the lovable womanizer that he is) and Oncus (the equivalent form of a demonic giant puppy), may be pushed aside for a new liking for a character but, because they were something I created, they'll always be my cherished babies.

Valentine Brothers, lol! That's good you got the massive page view influx in one day! People are NUTS for Alucard. He's really popular right now.

It's true about what you're saying- no one dies- in books. He lives in my imagination. He's a mix of both my parents. His children in the book (yes, there's a heart wrenching flashback chapter where it goes back, to present time, where his family is and it shows the loving, tender relationship he had with them), the son and daughter, are younger versions of my own half sister and brother (personality wise). Weird how it turned out- I didn't even PLAN that.

You're welcome! You're right, ya know. Oh GOD no. Artists are monsters! We destroy so much just to create. LOL! Another idea FOR DRAWING! BWHAHA! Course, ya know, I have a word document filled with MLP ideas, AND I still have to get off my lazy arse and do Psycho D!!



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