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Here's where I'll be taking things that come into my head and putting them in words on this here site for people to see.
God damn emotions!
Bleh. . . So I was thinkin' about it (like I do all the time) and I don't want to be sad about my friend leaving for college. . .
I want to be really happy for her like a good friend should, I mean I am happy for her, but there's other feelings getting in the way of it. Just me being selfish I guess. . .
I used to cry all the time 'cause I knew I'd miss her and she kept saying she would have time to spend with us, but college is kind of a big deal so. . . I wasn't going to get my hopes up.
Then it sorta turned to anger because I know there's nothing I could do to stop her. And if I could stop her I wouldn't because she's chasing dreams and I'm not gonna be the one to hold her back.
Sooooo. . . now I'm just kinda. . . trying not to feel anything 'cause if I do I'm sure it won't be happiness for my best friend (Oh no, 'cause I'm to negative to feel those good feelings! >.< ).

So uh, Nise, if you're reading this, I do want what's best for you and what makes you happy but I can't wrap myself around the idea of you movin' away. Meh. . . maybe it's something I'll just get over, maybe not, but I hate being in a bad mood about it. Urgh. .
Just needed to vent. hah

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Ninja Nise
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commentCommented on: Sun Feb 08, 2009 @ 02:33am
I understand how you're feeling. I really appreciate the fact that you're willing to be unhappy to let me be happy. That's one of the most selfless things that my friends have done for me. Thank you so much, I really do appreciate it. : )

You know that phrase "Things are gonna get worse before they get better"? I have a feeling that this is that type of situation. But I know you're strong, and you'll be fine. Besides, it's not permanent, you know?

commentCommented on: Thu Mar 26, 2009 @ 12:31am
Might as well be permanent because it's gonna be a long time before I'll see you again. . . . I'm still not positive you're gonna visit either. Maybe you'll visit your parents and then stop by and say hi to me but. . . . It's not gonna be the same, I know that much. That's why I'm so upset. . . . I don't want change. crying

Through My Lens
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