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Well, to say the very least, I should have updated yesterday, but didn't, so sorry for anyone who still reads this ^^;

I would have updated on regards on how stupid the party PuertoRicans hold every weekend of the 20th of january in the San Sebastian streets is to me, unless you know how to behave and act in parties, and where to spend the best times....

I guess I'll have to save that for sometime else. .__.;

Tonight, I just came across a journal on Gaia from an old acquaintance of mine from nearly a year ago. As I read this journal, thoughts came to mind on how I lost touch with said person, and how similar the situation this person is having is nearly, if not exactly the same way how I feel for this person.

In life, it's said that we never really get what we want, but only what we need. I guess it holds true, for in a day in which I wanted only but bliss for all of my friends, I fell out of grace from this person, albeit I had found hapiness for myself.

She's right. She's absolutely right. Pain is the one thing that makes us distant with one another. No matter how much we like people, or how cool and kind they may be, Pain is the reason why we distance ourselves from each other and why we often lose connections with everyone else from our past. It doesn't really take much... It could be the smallest thing, like not sharing a thing one day, to a messy breakup with words you know under other circumstances you would have never said, but due to the heat of the moment you say them, and no matter what you do or say you could never take them away, because the other person would forever be haunted by it, whether the person forgives you or not.

I still remember the time she said I made her realize how it's not through the action of getting material things in here, but how we treat people and how we deal with them that one could attain friendships, regardless of the distance. Now, as I write this with a bittersweet simle on my face, I remember all of that and I say "...and now you have bested me with your own kindness..."

it's funny it's always in or after the week or my birthday she happens to come to mind, even after all this time.

I know she'll never read this...

So, Thank you Lull... I know how messy & upsetting it is to look into the past with the mistakes we leave behind, and the people we hurt be it knowing or unknowingly... but thank you for answering as to why I felt so... pained... whenever I saw you around.

... and to whomever reads this, I explicitly ask of you NOT to bother Lull whatsoever...
The actual story is known only to me and her... and don't go asking for consent in order to learn it. you have been warned.

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