Father may I be shown
The man I have inside
Be shown the way to swallow my pride
For the last time
I cannot hide the state
Of my mind
I cannot free what's in me
It's hidden for all time
Mother may I be shown
The right I have to cry
Be shown the strength I have inside
For the last time
Starting with an emo song. Good way to go back into old habits, I suppose.
I've not been suicidal since my last post, as far as I can remember anyway.
Next month I will have been in the military for a year.
I got orders to Japan. I'm going in August. I'm a solder tech. I'm still debating if this is what I wanted...
My 'soul mate' broke up with me because I wasn't a baby oven.
My dog just had a stroke and if she's not better by monday they're putting her down.
I have less than 7 days to pack up all my s**t to go to Mayport for C school.
I accidentally broke DADT yesterday, and now I'm fairly certain my chief thinks I'm less of a person now (Not worried about being processed out, though)
The one girl I think I can have sex with, finally, keeps getting ******** kidnapped by my two 'friends'.
They've forced me to take leave on wednesday and so for 14 days I'm going to be getting s**t from my parents about how I'm not visiting them before I go to Japan.
I just quit a guild I loved because I couldn't handle being called a three letter and four letter word(s).
I have absolutely nothing to do on Gaia to take up my time anymore.
My macbook is dying a slow death.
My tablet pen broke.
Pretty sure there's some rumor going on around the barracks that I'm a sexual predator now.
I have a cold.
Gifts and PMs don't go to this account any more and the other Q account (who's name is JUST "Q" ) is being a d**k and won't forward my s**t to me anymore.
On my way to the Nex to buy cough drops, I started to walk toward mental health to tell them I was unfit to go to Japan.
I'm still debating if rerouting myself back to my room was the wisest choice.
Same old, same old.