• When I woke up, I was shivering. It was impossible that a humid cave could be this damn cold.
    "Good morning, Nanette," Jude greeted. I yawned and rubbed my eyes. When I opened them, I saw Jude getting undressed.
    "Jude! Can't you do that somewhere else?!" I griped. He made a smug smile and then laughed. I scowled at him and he laughed even harder.
    "I didn't know you were wide awake," He explained. I stuck out my tounge and he chuckled.
    "Nanette, what am I going to do with you?" He laughed. I sighed and rubbed my eyes again, making sure it wasn't a dream.
    I've always had these kind of dreams, watching Jude get undressed and he would laugh when I saw him, but it wouldn't be in a stupid cave. It would be inside my bedroom or the beach. If I had to see him get undressed in a cave, I was fine by that too.
    "Just call me, Nan, hotshot," I shot back. He chuckled again and slipped on a Abercombie shirt and some dark jeans.
    I swooned a little as he walked towards the pile of food gracefully. Man! I need to get dressed too! I thought.
    I got up and put on some skinny pants and a plain light blue shirt. Jude shot me a smile as I walked behind him to get something to eat too.
    "Hungry, Nan?" He teased. I rolled my eyes.
    "No, Jude. I just came here to watch you stuff your face," I replied hotly. This was a mistake obvisouly because he stopped moving and his green eyes looked hurt.
    "Look, loosen up. I'm just trying to make this "New World" better than it really is outside. I just wanted to joke around, try to loosen up this tense atmosphere. If you don't want me to, than i'm fine by it. Just as long as your happy," He finished coldly and walked back towards our camp.
    Damn it! I totally screwed up! I'm such a b***h! I thought darkly. I shook my head and kept mumbling under my breath.
    "Hey, honey," My mom croaked as I walked past her. I nodded my head, telling her I heard. She was about to say something, but I broke away, running until I couldn't run aymore.
    I fell down, searching for breath, searching for a meaning of life, searching for...Something...
    I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

    "What the hell are you trying to do? Kill yourself?" I heard a voice mutter. My eyes fluttered open and I saw Jude next to me, holding me close to him with my mother crouched on his side.
    "Your awake!" She exclaimed. Her voice was dry and rough.
    "Yeah, I am," I replied and stood up, stretching my limbs. Jude ruffled my mousey, brown hair.
    I'm lucky, really lucky. I thought. Jude hugged me tighter and mumbled in my hair," Never do that again, Nan, understand me?"
    I nodded and I hoped that he felt it. I watched my mother hobble to the food stack, to the blanket pile, to the clothes, and back towards us and winked at me.
    I blushed faintly, hoping Jude wouldn't look at my face or feel my face get warmer.
    If he did notice I was blushing, then either he ignored it or he was just countining to hum inside my hair.
    It was lovely having him so close to me, i've never really had anyone this close to me besides mom and family.
    I placed my fingers on his knee and then just put my whole palm of my hand on his thigh.
    I felt him flinch away from my touch, and then regained himself and countined to hum to me.
    "Jude," I asked,"How come your still not pissed off with me?" I felt him sigh under my body and hug me tighter to his gut and chest.
    I, of course, was faced away from his incredible body and was facing his way. He was staring at the same wall i was staring at...
    It took him a few moment before he could answer," Because, I don't want to have a fight with you, Nan. I don't want to lose you like how I lost all of my old friends. Your the last one I have and I don't want you to turn into dust, into nothing but air we breath in now." He finshed.
    I took in a deep breath when he said WE. I was shocked I was even considered his friend.
    "Well," I fumbled for the right words, but everything spilled out of me like beans,"I don't just want to be your friend, Jude. I want to be your more-than-a-friend. We're facing this stupid thing together with my mom. I want to be there holding your hand, holding her face if we die. I always want to be with you, Jude, but I just couldn't never explain how.
    This sun coming close to the Earth problem, i want to face it with you! I want to be there with you, forever and ever. No matter what. I ALWAYS want to be with you." I finshed and blushed scarlet.
    Me and my freakin big mouth! I thought to myself. I felt Jude's grip on me become harder, and then I fell to the ground as he jumped up.
    "Nanette, your always so sudden and mysterious," He said grimly," But I don't know if I have the same feeling you do...Yet."
    I felt heartbroken and hurt. Everything went smashing down and I was back to Earth again instead of some little fantasy story I was in.
    A tear slid down my face and I quickly brushed it off, hoping he didn't see.
    My luck ran out and he did.
    "I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings," He apologized. I didn't know how to talk anymore.
    "Well, i'm glad you care because in fact, you did, and also, i'm just pissed," I replied and turned my back on him and walked away.

    To Be Countined....