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My life is a worthless holw from which I fall endlessly and it never cesses to amaze me how much I-
Hate the fact that war and peace can be in the same-
Sentences that worl around and make this book that's in my-
Head is pounding as I write these words and rip roughly into my-
Skin color is the reason why I was an out cast in my all white-
School that I hate and can't wait to finish so I can go on with my-
Life, the thing I tried to take away from myself that day my friends started to-
Fight the urge to grab that gun and pull the trigger that will end my-
Life taht I was so blessed to get in the first place and cursed with in the-
End, we will all be judged and told weither we were good enough to get into heaven or be thrown into the pits of-
Hell is the place I call home and isn't changing no matter how much I-
Move into the place that I hate with all my life and wish it was over but it just wont stop telling me to get it over with!

I hear voices in my head that are telling me to end it! I feel so cold on these hot days of summer, and I just want to end it all! I feel the cold wind blowing on my back as I walk out and it pushes me towards the busy highway across the street from me! Why am I so cold? I don't get it! It's so cold and I'm stuck in the artic as people walk by and see my huddled frozen body. They just keep walking and don't care! I'm a child stuck in a young ladies body and I don't need all this stress! I need some time to excape. I want to get up and leave.