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It has now been officially two months since I ordered that art from a certain person, and even though that person has valid reasons, I have resigned myself to believe that I paid $15 for a couple of sketches. emo

ANYWAY

I went to the doctor to get my archbars removed, which for people who have not read every entry I've written ever, are hugeass things that are kind of like braces but bigger, bulkier, and more ripping up your lips/cheeks/etc and exceedingly uncomfortable.

The pumped me full of laughing gas, but it was not enough because all it did was make my nose numb. =(
And then they applied local anestetic to my mouth. I'm not exactly sure how archbars are attached to the teeth... Wasn't really paying attention since I was LITERALLY writhing in pain, whining like a pathetic puppy, and tearing up like the world was ending and there was nothing I could do to prevent me from pissing my pants in front of a live audience.

Ironically, I have a very high tolerance for pain. Ever since a longass time a go when I was literally paralyzed by it for over 12 hours, pain and I have been touch-and-go friends. I feel it, it's uncomfortable, and I'll whine about it if I feel like being an attention whore, but ultimately I can prevail and still work through it.

Except when it comes to my mouth.
My mouth just loves torturing me. It's notoriously resiliant to novacaine, which we found out rather painfully when I was getting a tooth pulled from the dentist and I COULD STILL FEEL EVERYTHING.
I had a phobia of people doing things in my mouth for the longest time when I was a kid-- but only if they wore gloves (That made no sense to me).
We had to get a dentist that agreed to work on me without gloves. Which took a few.

I recover fast from anestetic in my mouth- While the outside will remain numb, the inside recovers much quicker than normal people for some reason, and I have this horrible habit of pulling at stitches. Which I'm not supposed to be able to feel. Wonderful.

Then when I was getting my wisdom teeth pulled out, They gave me gas before they gave me the needle. And I guess I don't react well to that particular type of gas because I basically had a panic attack and thought I was dying.

My only explanation is I guess something really stupid/bad happened to my mouth in a past life. What other reasons to explain it? :/

Regardless, As I felt everything that was going on in my mouth, I was trying to gulp in as much laughing gas (through my nose) as possible. But it just wasn't enough and the doc had the audacity to be like "You know some people do this without any painkillers at all." I know he didn't MEAN to be condescending but You just saw my legs jumping around from being in HORRIBLE PAIN did you not?
MAYBE THAT'S NOT THE RIGHT WAY TO RUB IN HOW MUCH I SUCK.

Anyway, I came out of that procedure in a state of shock. I felt like a horrible psychological trauma had just occured. This confused me because I know it was a simple procedure-- only took maybe 10 minutes-- and also I was just.. Well I don't know.
So I am literally shaking from this "trauma" on the way home, and I just sit down and try to chill. Part of me is like "Dude. Chill out. No psychological injustice, this metal s**t in your mouth is finally over and you can finally be a normal person again" Where the other part of me just can't think anything at all because the twin towers just fell and I realized through the smoke my brother wasn't standing beside me any more.

My lips and nose are still completely numb, but I can feel all the inside of my mouth. My gums are bleeding like nobody's business but I can't wash out my mouth yet because I can't swish yet because I'm still numb. D: So as I swallow more blood I get more nauseous which makes me just that much more emo.

This is supposed to wear off in a few hours though... So sorry if I act weird for today. But at least all this stuff is over. I just have to work on opening my mouth wider until I can get to a normal bite, and also, you know... Chewing.

OH

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