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what is anger?
I don't like to get angry. I'm not the type a person to hold a grudge against someone. Usually I just keep inside ya know like that thing they call bottling up your true feelings or something like that. I was really pissed this morning and sadly enough it's not too many mornings where I can get out of bed and just be happy. Couldn't get any sleep last night because of random outburst of people getting up in a bad mood and not being able to go back to sleep so they just keep the light on in the middle of the night and just start doing things. My head... gahh! I am tired a talking to a certain person and constantly feeling like trash. I'm sorry but for the love of god! A person would like to be treated better than a damn dog although he or she may act like one. (I'm referring to myself as a dog). I hate being mess with to the point where I just want to rip a persons chest out by pulling their ribs out and then stomping on their lungs so that they can just stop breathing and slowly die in pain. Just Stop talking! Shut Up! Die For All I Care! Ahhh! s**t this is bothering the mess out of me! Random thoughts, just plan random. Blood just scattered everywhere, all on my hands, a bit on my shirt, all over my leg and my boot that I was stomping his lungs with. Yeah, yeah and then I'll just laugh and laugh. I'd slam his damn bloody ribs on the wall and break it into few pieces. I'd take the largest bone and jam it down his mouth and just scream "SHUT UP!"... I'm tired, if I didn't have so many problems with just being myself then maybe I could get on gaia and rp again but I just can't. I know, everyone goes through stuff and I'm not the only one with problems but you all must understand. I have a very weak mind. I can't take too much anymore. I've bottled up so much inside of me that now I'm having an even harder time controlling it. That's why I want to talk more now, cause if I don't then I think I'd end up cursing people out for just trying to talk to me. And now that brings me to the problem that I had in the beginning of me being treated like a dog and just wanting people to shut up. If I can't talk to people with out them saying something ignorant to piss me off then there's no point in me talking at all but me not talking just makes me think and when I do that I just become more depress. I'm such a confused little being. I can't even make up my mind on what it is that's bothering me let alone figure out how to right it with out rambling on about nothing. I'm just glad that people don't comment on these things because they might think I'm some type of dumb a** that don't even know how to control his own thoughts. 'sigh' guess that's life for ya...
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