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Stay Focused.
"Sigh" I was never good with saying the things that were on my mind but that’s for the simple fact that my mind is so damn random. I can’t stay focused on one thing for to long. I get bored easily so I begin to get bothered by that one thought and move on to another but… if that one thought keeps coming back to hunt you then you wouldn’t have much of a choice but to keep it in mind. This issue about my life is one of them. A person once said not too long ago (not to my face of course) that if my life was ever to be graded that I would get an F for failure. That my whole life was nothing but a complete failure… I never got those words out of my head. Till this day those same ******** words keeps hunting me. It’s not much but it’s wrong to say, especially the person who said it who most likely took as a nice joke since the person who told me took it seriously and then laughed about it because I couldn’t back myself up. Looking at walls all your life and only being able to think and draw to yourself I guess is having no life and I guess people would think of you as a failed person to have ever achieved anything in life. What can I really say about myself? I have no talents what so ever, oh wait let me guess… Drawing! Wow! So great! But I’m not even good at the s**t! And I am so limited. A lot of people might say it’s because I’m so damn lazy but it’s not true. I spend most of my life thinking. People might not believe it but all I ever do is think, which causes me to day dream and space out a lot. High school was the only life that I ever had that’s why I love it so much. Back in elementary school I experience some horrible mental abuse and that really screwed me up as a teenager. I have some serious problems that if I was to ever tell people I think that they’d stop hanging around me. I don’t even tell my best friend everything because sadly enough I cling on to him like a pet just so I can have his friendship. If not for him I wouldn’t be the person that I am now.
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